okay so for the past ing week people have been criticizing me... and this one friend of mine thinks i hate him because i havent contacted him. (youngkyo ...)BUT THE REALITY IS I HAVE A LIFE. im literally in the middle of studying my off for the SAT, applications for jobs, selecting classes for my college next year... and on top of that im having major family issues. first of all. my brother is in jail— because he is a ing alcoholic and went out and drove while he was drunk. my sisters all live back in japan and only 1 out of the 3 i have doesnt hate me. so that leaves me with 1 sibling who cares. and then theres my parents. my parents just dont even give a . my dad has neglected me all of my life and hasnt done anything for me. he treats me like im his toy. ive only heard him say "i love you" twice. he told me he only had me to be his worker, and that im a dissapointment. my mom is the only one who cares along with my sister.  along with my ing studying- EVERY PERSON NEAR ME IS BUGGING ME. LIKE I TOLD U IM STUDYING AND TO GO AWAY. GET. THE. HELL. AWAY. FROM. ME. I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU WHEN IM STUDYING MY OFF. MY . ._. AND THEN PEOPLE GO AND ASK - "OH WHY ARE YOU DEPRESSED? you have no reasons!" well i have so many reasons. and you shouldnt be judging me on my depression. MAYBE if my life wasnt such a living HELL i wouldnt be depressed. MAYBE if i could sleep at night— MAYBE if i could go a day without thinking that i want to die.
JUST
MAYBE-

i cant even deal with all of this .
so dont act like you could either.
i hate people who act like everything
i do is wrong and that my life is nothing.
i mean seriously. i already want to die
why make it worse..?! ㅠㅜ 
. . . if u read this thank you
and to all you PISS-OFF ES;
maybe you should go die in a hole :)
thats a taste of your own medicine.

ありがとうございます。 감사합니다.. thank you —

-saki