This is probably one of the personal blog posts I'll ever post here.

You know that feeling when you expect something bad's going to happen? 

Well, I had that all day. I had an interview for hospital volunteering, something that I really really wanted to do, and they told me they would get in touch by Monday (today)

I was actually at one of my volunteer placements today, usually my mind is taken off whatever problems I have when I'm there, but I kept worrying about whether I was able to get it. I even managed to get some story planning done for EBB (good news, I've done the beginning part and I've mapped out the rest of the chapter) 

Bad news...once I got home, I got a letter from them which basically was just a simple rejection letter. And now, I'm too far away from being in the mood to write anything half decent.

At first, I wasn't too bothered, or at least I tried not to be. But I suppose that I've been having quite a few of those lately and the raw feeling of being a failure opened up once again. It didn't feel good. I even cried a bit but eventually I came around. They left a contact name for me to call about other volunteering opportunities, so I'll call tomorrow morning, hopefully I'll be able to get something. 

Anyway, thanks for sticking until now (if you did, I wouldn't be offended if you didn't) I just wanted to get this off my chest, since I didn't tell anyone about my interview (the worst part is when you have to say that you didn't get whatever you were applying for) and...you guys are really lovely, so yeah. 

On a more postive note, I have KakaoTalk (well I just installed it, haha) and I have like 0 friends pretty similar to real life, so if you have that, feel free to send me your username (or I'll send you mine since I have no idea on how to swap usernames or whatever) and we can talk, if you don't find me creepy or anything haha. Though I hope I don't come across as creepy.