Oh wow... I checked my last post and I realized I haven't posted in 2 weeks O-o

But it isn't like anyone reads this anyway xD So yeah, my life has been a living hell for the past couple of weeks, and I'm already behind schedule trying to update my VIXX fanfiction on Wattpad (yes, I do keep a deadline as to when I finish things. I doubt I'll be able to keep that up anymore, though LOL)

I am actually kind of stressed right now, I got a bad grade on my Biology homework, but thank goodness it was only 5% of my grade. I still have an A in that class, so I'm okay. For now >_< But I know now that I will have to work almost three times as hard as the other kids in Bio because I haven't taken the class since middle school. Thank goodness for KhanAcademy~ *wipes sweat off brow*

Yeah, I'm not the most extroverted person, and that will be a bit tough. And the teacher is the type of teacher that will help you, but won't just give you answers right off the bat. I'll have to get used to that.

The reasons for my stress, though? I'm a junior with a 2.8 GPA. And with that, there is no way the colleges that I am looking at will accept me. Nope. No way, zero, zilch, nada, none. I really do try in everything that I do. I'm just not the type of person that applies myself into things that are barely interesting to me. It just doesn't work that way with me.

I guess I'm not fit for the real world, huh? XD

K-pop idols are kind of lucky in a sense, though. They get to be a little lenient on their studies, and South Korea has one heck of an education system. It isn't all fun and games over there. Their whole life is based off of one test that they take at the end of middle school.

Now that is a ridiculous amount of pressure. I mean, MIDDLE SCHOOL. That time for me was blissful heaven, but those kids have to spend their days cooped up in their classrooms studying their asses off for a test that doesn't even guarantee a good life. Those kids are only 13!

Whatever happened to learning and exploring in the world?? Call me old-fashioned, but I have dreams too, and unfortunately, my dreams don't involve being penned up inside a room and memorizing things that I will end up forgetting later.

Yup, definitely old-fashioned. But whatever, at least I don't want to have to tell my kids that I spent my days studying for tests and doing sports just to look good on a resume. I mean, the old people at the nursing home my mom works at have better stories than the people who write picture books.

I want to have a fruitful life, a life that will leave an impact on the world, not just some normal person on the street drinking coffee and rushing off to work.

I'm sure K-pop idols are hard workers, though. I'm not undermining their endeavors in any way. I admire them a lot for their perseverance. Not anyone can balance a life on camera with a life off camera. It takes a lot of courage and skill to do that.

And obviously I can't do that at all.

I'll stop ranting for now, I have homework to finish and a story to update tonight ;D