it is not important but, idk I jut wanna tell to you all and make my heart feel relieved. Im about to tell about WHAT A CLUMSY AND WEIRD AND RECKLESS I AM-_- so--- I dont understand why I am this- and reckless and whatever. so yesterday, I feel like an idiot-_- I was eating my food, when I opened my mouth, it fell and rolling on the ground.......... and it happened in front of mycrush. MY DAMN 9MONTHS-I-FALL-IN-LOVE-TO-HIM-AND-I-EVEN-BROKE-MY-BOYFRIEND-BECAUSE-I-LOVE-THIS-DIMPLE-CRUSH PERSON. and he saw my food rolling to the ground, from my mouth. and my jaw dropping. i cant stand with this embrassement-________- I WANNA JUMP IN AN HOLE AND FORGET HIM. after that I didnt have any brave to make an eye contact with him-_- if I were him, I'd illfeel with this in girl. and second, he was shaking hard my water bottle and reflex me I yell at him "ARE YOU NUT STOP THIS!!" because I felt disgusting at water that have been shaked-_- then and took that bottle from his hand and my hand accidently brushed his hand:$$$$ and i could feel he gasped._. and then he said "girl, this is empty" WHAT THE- and I was blushing hard-_- I just cant understand how agressive I was. Oh gawd. he must got an illfeel toward me TT why I am this clumsy. why I cant be quiet, elegant, haughty--- thats why Im single and never win his heart<|3