Indeed it's really hard to study as a scholar - maintaining your grades, your behavior at school, to your teachers which in some point can also affect your freewill. As a candidate graduating student for this October 2013, my life isn't just a walk in a park. I've a scholar since highschool. I was very focused on y studies because my mindset was to be a consistent honor student. Then I graduated highschool as the 7th Honor. 

Ever since I stepped in college I felt my student life changed upside down. I enrolled as an academic scholar and tried to maintain or increase my grades. Then I realized how tough was my road. What did I do to myself? Why did I let my poor self suffer in these sort of things when I can do much better by doing other things aside from studying and maintaining my grades. 

Financial problems arises in each Filipino families no matter how reach or poor. Each student has the same dilema with finances. My family is really in need. I once thought of giving up my studies to get  job and help with finances but then my father begged me to just finish everything so all their hard works will be paid off. Seeing me march in the aisle during October 12, 2013 graduation ceremony is enough for them. 

I feel pity to my parents, TBH. Looking how they would wake up early the morning everyday to go to work to earn and pay my finances at school.. it makes me very, very sad. I also used to join numbers of school organizations to lessen my school fees. I became a Military Officer for 3 years and a member of our school's Debate team. My academic scholarship gives me full discount ONLY  to my tuition fees. Misellaneous fees are around 5-6K per semester, through my extra curricular activities' allowances at least I did lessen my misellanous fees. 

All these are all for my parents who work hard every day and night. For 22 years of existence, soon-to-graduate my bachelor degree in Psychology and my online kpop business were already my biggest achievements and I am indeed very thankful for being blessed. 

Note: Say a to Kpop, I won't care. I am a Kpop fan, I own a business related to Kpop, I am earning because of Kpop and I'm proud of it!