First of all, I'd like to thank Supergirl27 and inSHININGspirit for giving me an opportunity to win Exo's album.

I'm not a good writer, I know that and I also know that my chance of winning this contest against the other contestant is like one to a hundred.

My chance of wining is probably less than that.

It's like a mouse to beat a elephant at a 'who is the fatter' contest, Suho being growing taller than Kris, and me passing a math test.

I know how much my chances are, but I'd like to give this a try.

Exo...is my life.

They make me smile, they introduce me to the amazing world of Korean music.

They makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside.

And they turn me from a lifeless girl to a kinda out-going one.

So here is my story...

When I was 9, which was last year, I was in a great depression after finding out that my mom have leukemia. She've been hiding it from me for 3 years, until last year on July 13th, I found her medical record inside her coat jacket. I confront her with face stain with tears, and she confess to me that her condition had turn into acute and that her doctor predict that she have approximately 3 months to live left if they can't find her a O blood bone marrow donor. Unfortunately, luck wasn't on mine or her sides, they couldn't find her a donor and she died in a very severe death. My world collasp the moment I pick up the phone to recieve such a gruesome news. My mom was my bestfriend, she made time for me eventhough I know that she was always busy funding for me, her death almost killed me. My sister and I move in with my 60 years old grandmother in Georgia after my mother's death. I grew up without a father, he died during the 9/11 incident, he was working in one of the twin towers, as far as I heard and chose to believe. So after I moved in with my grandmother, I didn't talk or communicate with anyone anymore, I cut my all of my friends out of my life and they tried to get back in and I denied all of them, eventually they gave up and leave me in my misery. That's when I started to blame everything on myself. I blame myself for my mother's past, though I didn't know why, I blame myself that my grandmother had to start working again, I blame myself that my siblings won't have a proper childhood because of me. To make it short, I blame myself for every bad thing that happened in this world. I even started to have suicidal thoughts and even attempted to but was always get stop by my grandma, I'm greatful that she did and I owe my life to her. Then about to a month later, I was creeping through youtube and happened to stumble up on a Exo video, MAMA. The song had a introduction that I didn't understand, eventhough I'm pretty sure that he was speaking english. The song gave me a dark aura, then I search the translation of it. I felt that I had a 'connection' to the song with the lyric lines such as 'I guess I have no choice but to tolerate who was lost outside. Even though I close my eyes.Answer me, why did the people change. Did they notice the existence of that time. I have forgotten how to just hear, love and care, no longer but lost. Ect' I listen to their other songs such as What Is Love and History. They literally change my life. I was in love with the music they produce. They changed me. I went online and started spazzing with other Exo music listener, I learn how to get comforable with communicating with people again. When I return back to school, I open myself more freely to strangers who soon to be my friends. I meet my first friend and she became my bestfriend after I reconize her as one of the people whom I'd chat with. We connect instantly. We just clicked. We fit like two peice of puzzles.

I begin to listen to other Korean music groups such as Big Bang, SNSD, Super Junior and 2ne1, but Exo will forever remain number one in my heart. I can't afford the XOXO album, or any album or any K-Pop merchandise because as I mentioned earlier, my 60 years old grandmother is the only person whose raising my siblings and me. If I did win, then this will be the first album that I'll own, that I can say that it's mine, and that I can spread K-Pop to more listeners.

All of my life I was a loser, I'm not going to lie or anything. I was a loser, I fell first and second grade because I had dyslexia (You don't know how embarressing that is). I had trouble comprehending words and no one in my family have time to help because my parents were always away, and I was the oldest out of my three little brother and sisters. I got kick out of the soccer team because I was too skinny to even kick the ball and slow down my teamates during practice and made them loose many game because I always kick the ball in the wrong goal. I didn't make much friends because like I said, I was a loser. I hope this contest will make me believe that I can win something. Even if I don't win, I'd still like to thank you for giving me a fair chance of winning. I'm sorry for making you read this long blog post and I hope I do win because if I did, I'd be the happiest 10 years old Exotic ever.