The Hardest Thing About Love
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dear t,
yeah, i know.
but the thing is. before any of this…
you came when i was already in a relationship with someone else who’s been with me more years than your fingers could count.
but the thing is, you knew i was broken and complicated from the start.
but the thing is, you saw me alone.
but the thing is, you cared more than he did.
but the thing is, i began to fall for you.
but the thing is, you felt it, too.
but the thing is, you always spoke of it like he took me away from you.
but the thing is, you came and loved me.
but the thing is, we clicked.
but the thing is you made me think of my future.
but the thing is, you messed up not just my heart…but also my soul.
and the thing is,
after all that. you say it isn’t possible, not now.
after all that, you let go of your hand and left me on the sand.
after all that, you tell me ‘i’m not going to rule that out’ to future possibilities.
after all that, you took another girl just hours after we broke it off.
and after all that, i’ve been confused.
that’s why, i gave up.
that’s why, i decided to be alone. without you. without him.
that’s why, i realized now that the table is turned…but not completely.
cuz all i can do now, is watch you with someone from far away.
cuz all i can do now, is move on.
cuz all i can do now,
is be alone.
xo,
b
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