Today was awkward...no its still awkward. I have a crush on this guy and I don't even know why. We only talked like 3 times but when I see him in the hall my heart feels like its going into my throat and my tummy feels all warm. Ugh, I saw him today and instead of saying "hi" I ran into the bathroom. THen I saw him again and I pretended I didn't seem him. I dont think he notices me anyways.

You know what the most he is engaged. Boo. Likeing someone who is taken the most. I know I'll get over him. He is a senior and he will be gone this December.

Its weird I havent had a crush in so long like  10 years. I didn't know I was even capable of liking any one again. I've had only 3 crushes (not counting celebrity crushes lol) in my whole life. All of them taken and two of them didn't like me. out of the two one of them became a good friend. Its hard for me to like someone and when I do..it takes awhile.

I just want to clean my room and eat....and post up this chapter for my fanfic today. i won't sit and mope over him.