Should I make a video? Write a story? Create a collage and post it on tumblr?

All these questions were running through my mind as I prepare for SNSD's 6th anniversary. It's not that I want to seek attention or want to stand out from the rest, I want a way to express how I feel of how much I admire SNSD and how grateful I am to be in their fandom. So I settled to this. A blog. No fancy editing, no imagination needed to create a story, no wasting time finding thousands of SNSD pictures to add a caption and post it online. 

This is all from my heart. 

I discovered and started liking them in the summer of 2009. I love to dance so I like watching people dance online. I came accross this video of a girl and a boy dancing. I was amazed of how the girl dances. A mixture of power, grace and flexibility. My jaw was literally hanging open as I watch her dance. I wanted to see more of her dancing skills so I searched in the description box for her name (this is in youtube btw). That girl turned out to be HyoYeon. The girl who introduced me to Kpop, and SNSD.

The first song I heard from them was Genie. I was captivated of how synchronized they were, considering they were many of them in the group, and how they can sing and dance at the same time. On top of that they were all beautiful. One video led to the next until I found myself watching them every single day. Eventually I learned that they were from South Korea, trained and controlled by a company and was in the music industry for 2 years back when I discovered them. I knew about Kpop and how there were many other groups apart from SNSD, but back then I wasn't interested to any other idol groups. My focus was only to them.

I was just merely a fan on the first year I got to know them. I didn't know much about SNSD but I know I was there fan. I only knew 1 or 2 names from the group, didn't know anything about when they debuted and what their roles were in the group. I still continued to watch videos from them created by their fans and eventually I got to know them one by one. 

Within those 4 years of being sone, my admiration for them grew bigger. When they laugh, I laugh. They cry, I cry. I was confused back then on how much they made an impact in my life, how much they changed it. But I know those changes were never a negative. Whenever I had personal problems in my life, I turned to them, watch their variety shows and fancams, and in no time I would feel better right away. The first time I cried was watching a fanmade video of their 3rd anniversary. It changed my view on them a lot. I didn't know how much they went through just to become an idol. That was the first time I felt disappointed to myself for being useless as a fan since I couldn't do anything for them except stare at my computer screen and watch them perform. I know I don't know how much they went through before and after becoming an idol but seeing them tired, stressed out, and crying pained me. That day I decided that I will be a sone forever. I want them to know that I will always be with them. They don't have to face their problems by themselves because no matter what, I will stand beside them.

Taeyeon's selfless attitude for letting the other members talk instead of grabbing the spotlight; Jessica's unusual sense of humour in variety shows; Tiffany's amazing skills for spot on answering questions; Sunny's 2 sided personality (cute and mature side); Hyoyeon's soft heart; Yuri's charming aura; Sooyoung's words of wisdoms; Yoona's sensitive side and Seohyun's harmonizing skills. Their dorkiness, their talents, everything about them is why they are my role models and why I became part of this fandom. I do admit how sometimes I would love to reply back and answer those haters who always have to find something wrong about these girls but then I just take a deep breath and remind myself that I shouldn't level myself with them. If they hate them then they hate them. They obviously have nothing better to do than fill their minds with hatred on these girls. No matter how much criticisms I read I will still continue to support them no matter what, even though I admire from afar.

Because of SNSD, I experienced something new to my life. Because of them I learnt so many new things. That's why I repay them by being a sone, supporting them until the end. Even though I might like other girl groups out there, they don't have that feeling I get whenever I see SNSD. I may not know how to describe that feeling but I know it's only for SNSD. The only regret that I had was I wished I discovered them earlier. The day they debut or even before that, because for me, I think that that was the hardest time for them. Being in the spotlight as a rookie and having only a pond of pink to support them. But look at them now, through problems and hardships they became stronger as a person and the unending bond between SNSD and us, sones. Today they have the pink ocean, always with them wherever they go.

''I’m thankful to you for silently taking care of me when I was hesitant and young.... Even a long time passes, I want to dream forever with you.'' -Forever (SNSD)

 지금은, 소녀시대! 앞으로도, 소녀시대! 영원히, 소녀시대! 

“…If there’s one thing that won’t change, it’s the fact that from the beginning to the end SNSD was “one” with 9 members” - SNSD 

Beautifulescape is signing off,

Happy 6th anniversary my 9 angels <3