Who are we ?
Who are you ? You begin to question the person in the mirror at some point in your life, when you are not capable to question another being. Who am I? You question your own self as you are slowly drowning in the thoughts that maybe, just maybe, you are a........ nothing.
Your mind starts to wander in every possible direction. You feel like nothing ever goes your way, so you must be the problem here. But as the truth be told, you are not. When something big happens, your heart breaks. You decide to give up. But if you are reading this, that means no, you have not given up.
My experience, I take the blade and strike a cut on my wrist, in a hope that maybe I can get out of this place, this world that is oh so cruel. But I fail. Annoyed, I strike once more in the same place. I fail once again, but my senses reveals some reality to me. Just one more, and you're done. I step back from the thought. What might happen if I fail doesn't scare me, or what will people think or what will people do who love me, but the thought that what will happen when I will succeed in my mission to take my own life. What happens in this thing they call, the afterlife ? I am a big sinner after all. I am afraid to go in the grave, and I am afraid to face whatever will happen after death.
Anyways, the point is, my fear saves me every time. And just like that, I learned that what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. The mere thought of my own loved ones and loving ones comes to mind after the fear, and the feat brings sense into me. And I throw the blade away.
This only happens when I am deeply depressed, which I am mostly all the time. But I know, God didn't bring me this far just to leave me alone. I am not so sure about still having hope though, it comes and goes, but deep inside I know I have given up. I am done. But I am afraid of life as well as of death. And I am stuck. But the little things, they keep me going no matter what.
You matter. The purpose, you came into this world to change someone's life. Do that in a good way. Because at the end of the day, all we have is who we are.
Who are we actually? We are the people who wander not by seeing only, but by thoughts. We think and think and we believe. But almost 90% of the things you worry about,never actually happen.
We are strong, we may not know yet, but I know, we are slowly developing from contenders to warriors. I do not know you personally, but one thing is for sure, everyone is fighting a battle, be kind. We are fighting a battle too, either with us or others. And make sure that in the way of winning, you don't lose something. They say, "Before you start a battle you better know what you are fighting for."
I know what I am fighting for, Happiness. And I am fighting with myself. Yesterday I was wise, so I wanted to change the world, today I am wiser, so I am changing myself.
"We do not know how strong we are, until being strong is the only choice we have left."
And always believe, it gets better.
Something I wrote since I needed to lighten my heart.
I hope this is something good for everyone.
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