As I said in my last blog post, I was feeling left out.

Please click above link.

Apparently today it got worse.Guess what happened?

I was sacrificing my time again and being good again (I sound conceited but it's true. XD). I went to X's house. She was absent for school today. So I wanted to check up on her, and bring her today's homework. I had to bring Y along, sadly. I wanted to bond with X. Me and X only, but life's unfair aye.

I don't really want to talk about it anymore...

They even locked me outside X's room for the SECOND time. hmm.

So in conclusion X and Y got closer. X and I are drifting apart.  Y and I are drifting apart.

I was closer to Y than X, just last week.

I was closer to X than Y, just last week.

I don't know whether I'm nice or stupid.

Making them be close, and losing them myself.

Someone tell me what to do.

And, thanks for all the people that commented on the last blog post. Thanks a lot. Those were quite helpful.

But anyway.. People asked me about my facebook rant, I said it wasn't X and Y. (I didn't put their names on the rant.)

I'm just faking it. All the while I have been.

X asked me about my rant, and I said it wasn't them. I really want to tell them how I feel. But i'm scared.
Scared of the consequences, scared of what will happen, and exams around the corner.

I'm scared. And it's going to be awkward if I told them. Will they still be friends with me, will we be still that close, will they act in front of me? I don't know.

What shall I do? I really have no idea. I've been faking it. Faking it ever since I realised that life ain't sunshine and rainbow.
I'm too mature for my age. I know.

ottoeke?

Someone, tell me what to do, please.