This unfathomable feeling is just a little too overwhelming for me. This feeling isn't sadness or withdrawals or anything that I have a word for. And maybe that's why it’s bothering me so much. So I thought that if I were to write it all out, maybe this feeling will weaken and then my heart would be able to beat again without feeling an uncomfortable constrict.

Hmm... I feel that there are just so many issues/events and opinions (both my own and others') that contributed to this big, complicated and flurry mess of emotions that I'm experiencing right now. All of these that I'm typing right now are all thoughts that are generated from my perspective which is influenced by my individual personality. Everyone has a unique personality. 

So, SS5SG is by far, THE FAVOURITE CONCERT THAT I HAVE EVER ATTENDED. Hands down. It had impacted me SO MUCH emotionally (?) It was the first time I teared up during a concert. It was the only concert that made me want to give up controlling my tears and just break down into a pile of ugly sobbing mess (I forced myself to hold back the tears). I mean, I have never cried during the past 4 concerts that I've attended...maybe I'm just PMS-ing? o_o

My friends and I managed to snag a spot in the 1st row of the mosh pit (free standing zone), so I got a pretty good view of the entire show. I had at least 2-3 minutes of pure gold with real-life LEE DONGHAE standing 1-2metres DIRECTLY in front of me with just air inbetween him and my friends and I. If you measured at 90 degrees angle from my feet and drew a line straight, the line would reach Hae's feet. 

My impression of DONGHAE: The first member that I saw up-close during the concert. He looked exactly like how you'd see him on TV and posters. The memory of him with sparkly/teary eyes while he stood in front of us mouthing the lyrics of a slow song is extremely vivid. A cutie that felt apologetic for not being able to give his best during the show because of his injured hand. Hae kissed his mic only a million times as a way to give ELF there kisses as an apology. 

Anyway, the few members that kept coming to my area were KangIn, RyeoWook, DongHae and EunHyuk (: I'm so glad to have them stationed there, even though my bias is Kyu, because I could really feel their sincerity, ESPECIALLY KANGIN AND HYUKJAE. 

KANGIN: This dude totally sky-rocketed up my bias list, I swear. HE WAS SO FRIENDLY AND SWEET! I got to look at him clearly so many times during the concert because he kept coming over and I can totally tell why he is called "Korea No.1 Handsome Boy". HE IS SO GOOD-LOOKING ;-; I'm so glad that I got to see him during SS5 :,) 

EUNHYUK: HE IS SO FREAKIN' PRECIOUS! Him too, shot up my bias list along with Kangbear. There were a few moments when he was right in front of my friends and I...and I swear, it felt so SURREAL. We've all watched HyukJae dance on TV/Youtube, but seeing him right in front of me, dancing just felt surreal, really. And the unexpected speech that he made after the concert ended...he is definitely one precious man.

RYEOWOOK: I WAS GRACED BY THE PRESCENCE OF BADAWOOK IN PURPLE WIG AND HEELS STRIDING ACROSS ME. The one and only fan service that I received that night was given by him: KIM RYEOWOOK WAVED AT ME. Yay ^_^ It feels good. I was the only one waving my full arm at one time and he smile-chuckled at waved at me. I swear he didddddd - it was confirmed by people standing around me. 

Oh, and in my opinion, Hyuk and RyeoWook ARE BETTER-LOOKING IN REAL LIFE (than compared to pictures xP).

SIWON: He hardly/never walked past me or came over to my area. But recalling the memory of CHOI DAMBI that I saw that night...shisus, I need breathing assistance. Cross-dressed Siwon is the MOST EPIC character in the show tbh. I really don't get his hair though, but I guess he doesn't get his own hair either...cos he pulled off his wig on stage during the show. lol o_o 

KYUHYUN: My bias, MY EYES WERE TARGET-LOCKED ON YOU DURING THE FIRST PART OF THE CONCERT LOL. Seeing you again is just a total dream come true. Kyu looks EXACTLY like how he’d appear on fancams. He did walk across me a couple of times. “I’m crab, I’m crab.”

WONKYU’S PAPER KISS: I CAN DIE (NAH JK) A HAPPY FANGIRL NOW. I thought that they won’t do it again, since they’ve already done it in SS5HK just a couple of weeks back. Kyu placed the Marry U – I Do fan project hand banner on his lips...pretty much inviting SiWon to kiss him tbh. Once again, my OTP ship sailed/zoomed so successfully that it overshot the Pacific Ocean and transformed into a spaceship.

I also watched SJ perform Club No.1 (damn), It's You and Marry U with my eye. Do you know how happy I am to be able to watch them perform those songs? :,D

MARRY U: "We are going to sing this song as if we are going to propose to you all." 

DAYDREAM: The MOST BEAUTIFUL song during the concert. The White Light fan project was such a success. It was so breathtaking. That moment shared with Super Junior and ELF along with the touching melody of the song, in the sea of sapphire blue lights accompanied with pretty white lights was just too precious. I willed myself to remember that moment forever.

"Switch off all the lights," one of the SJ member (EunHyuk?) said. 

The stage lights went off.

"So beautiful, like flowers." KangIn smiled.

SUNGMIN: 10 + 10 = Sungmin’s .

SHINDONG: Lol he kept throwing food into the neighbouring mosh pit, which made me jealous because I was really hungry too! He is really smiley, just like how he is on TV :3

HENRY: This mochi had his pants tore/split during one of the performances LOL. Which led to EunHyuk going, “Let’s all check our pants. 1, 2, 3...” and all of them bent forward and looked at their crotch area HAHAHA.

“I feel that I have a special connection with Singapore (fans??).” Henry said during one of the ments. Hehe, thanks mochi! (:

Anyway, Henry peformed part of TRAP live! We chanted for Trap like mad and when he performed it, we literally sang-screamed along with it.

ZHOU MI: I hardly got to see him up-close :/ Mimi performed part of his solo song 完美的再见 and the fans sang along with him! :D  

I was so delighted! :P I really wanted HenMi to hear us sing along to their solos, wanted all of Super Junior to hear it…and they did :,) Their faces showed it. HenMi are just too precious.

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For the past two years in Singapore, there were 2 shows for both SS3 and SS4. However, for SS5 this year, there was only 1 single show.

Throughout the show, SJ kept mentioning about having only one day:

SiWon: I wonder if we can come back next time.

KyuHyun: I guess we have no choice but to do a smaller scale next time.

EunHyuk: I think we expected too much from the Singaporean fans.

ShinDong: Okay EunHyuk, next time when we are here, why not we just sing the first verse of every song? We can make it shorter.

KyuHyun: How about the first verse of 80 songs?

I know that they are just kidding and I did treat their words as jokes at first. Maybe I was affected by some stuff that happened prior the concert or maybe it was just PMS (rofl). But then, they kept mentioning about “only one day” and I guess I started to feel hurt :/

Even though there is one show lesser this time round, don’t they know that the love from the ELF present on that one day is definitely stronger than before? And that is because we were the once who stayed even when others strayed.

I mean, the boys are so precious and I do want the whole world to be able to see them perform in Super Show…but it is inevitable to say that their popularity fell by at least a little. Yes, the local concert organiser did screw things up and affected the ticket demands to a certain extent. There was a visible drop in ticket demand; the queue for the official SS5 merchandise is visibly shorter as compared to SS4’s. I know/noticed a couple of people who used to attend SS4 but not SS5 and there are probably much more of such.

I don’t feel angry or disappointed towards the fans that left because it’s their choice and all.

I’m happy that I’m still an ELF.

“You guys are very lucky,” KyuHyun said. “…because it’s our only show here, we give in our all.”

And here’s my bias for everyone, Kyu said, “Those who aren’t here are going to regret for the rest of their lives.”

Lol, love you, KyuHyun ;)

“Promise us that you will never forget this day. Promise to not forget us.” HyukJae said towards the end of the concert.

You silly monkey, I’d always want to remember 6^th of July.

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EunHyuk came back out approximately 5 minutes after the concert officially ended to address about the HenMi issue. Go and search it up if you haven’t :P Yeah, they are actually aware about the petition on-going…I hope that ELF at least managed to give SJ, give HenMi some assurance that night.