It's only been a few days, yet it feels like forever since I last wrote a fic. :( I'm actually feeling upset because of this haha. All these feelings kept within me, what is the best way to release them but fics? You know the phrase, "Absence makes the heart fonder?" I truly think I'm feeling that now. :( Normally, when I'm on the bus on the way to school, I'll be thinking what should I write in my next fic, what should I do with my stories, how should I update my next chapter etc.

But now I'm not. :( All I'm doing is staring out distantly at the streets that pass me by and wonder why the hell does my life seem so lifeless? Writing fics are a way of helping me destress right? How can I even stop? :( I'm so dumb. I'm just gonna declare myself back on hiatus again. I mean, what's life if you can't even pursue what you like right? I don't care anymore. >< I NEED MY LIFE BACK!

It's only now that I've realised how much AFF has changed my life, haha. When fairytael told me I am her favourite author on aff, when noldenever encourages my writing from the start till now, when galadura commented on my blog posts giving me support, when UKnowMi talked to me about how writing never leaves us.. :')  YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOU MAKE MY DAY!

I remembered when I was writing the first chapter of The Phone Call, I was alone. My only friend in school had gotten a boyfriend at that time and she kinda just dumped me for him. I remembered feeling upset at that time, then I thought to myself, does Yunho and Changmin feel this way too? This overwhelming sense of loneliness? The unbearable feeling of loss? It was then that I started picking up my pen and writing on a piece of paper. The words flowed out of me and thus The Phone Call begun.

It's funny how 21 chapters of that fic has passed and now I'm actually on better terms with that friend I mentioned before. We finally straightened things out and she's treating me so much better. She's hanging out with her boyfriend and their clique but I'm happier now. I've found new friends. Friends whom I can confide in, friends whom I know will support me no matter what and I'm so insanely grateful for it. At what felt like one of the lowest point of my life, I had AFF as a medium to vent my frustrations and I'm really really thankful for it. I can't help feeling the irony that my friendships are healing along with the characters in my fic haha. :) Maybe, if you believe hard enough, what you want really will come true! ^^

An angsty fic may pop out here and there cause life's really not a bed of roses but hey, if JYJ can get through that lawsuit mess, surely I can too! :D Always keep the faith right? That's why, to all the Cassies out there, don't lose your faith in life's struggles okay? Be it a broken relationship, a broken family, a sense of overwhelming loss and loneliness when a loved one passes on, a struggle to maintain a mask in this society of politics, never lose hope!

Cause hope will always be in the end.

Just like how DBSK will forever be five members.

It's as simple as that. :)

My readers, I love every single one of you. Let's all keep the faith together, ne?

(Malaysian Cassies, Indonesian Cassies and any cassies out there who are affected by the haze, please take care of yourselves. Health is more important than wealth okay? GAMBATTE!)

I believe the bonds of friendships will never die.

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EDIT: And also to my betas, thank you! _caxiAhtic_ and fairytael. THANKS FOR VOLUNTEERING TO BE MY BETA! ^^