Sometimes I think I'm not good enough for my friend . My bestfriend always ignore me . 

But when I think again , I think don't have any friend . 

I think I'm just a lonely person , no one really want to befriend with me . 

I'm awkward person and I'm not really socialize because I don't like crowd and meeting new person .

Maybe it's really my fault , I tried to be a good friend to them . 

I think they kind of hate me . 

Sometimes , I don't understand what friendship mean . My friends always fight . I'll be lost and don't know who side should I support . 

I'm not a popular kid in my school or a clever student . I tried to be like they want me to be . I tried . 

Whenever I had problems , I don't know who should I tell to . 

Friend ? I think they never listened . Same goes to my sister . She always tell me her problem but when I tell mine she doesn't give any respon . It's hurt . 

I tried to pretend everything is all right but I'm already tired of trying .