So yesterday, out of complete boredom, I actually read my fic The Phone Call starting from the first chapter all the way till the twenty-first chapter and let me tell you, my eyes almost rot off. SINCE WHEN DID I WRITE SO MUCH? *mind-boggled* O____O

After the shock wore off, the frustration started to kick in. If I was a reader and not the writer of this fic, I would kill myself, without a doubt. It's BEEN twenty one chapters and yet nothing's been really solved except for YooSu and Changmin's relations. I mean, what about the soulfighters? What about Yoochun, Junsu and Yunho? Don't all three of their relations matter too? WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM OMG?

So now I'm actually quite fed up with myself HAHA. :/ Worse still, I know for a fact that I can't update soon (if I do that means I'm procrastinating on my school homework) since school is starting on Monday again. WHY IS SCHOOL RUINING EVERYTHING AGAIN? :( Maybe I really do need to find a beta. :( But I really like keeping my fics personal.. *conflicted* What should I do?

I want to update more frequently, but I have to wait for the inspiration to kick in also. -_____________- And inspiration for me comes by hearing the right song which is usually a to find. *sighs* The thing with me is that I never know what is the right song until I hear it. Cliche, yes I know, but that's true! I really do feel this way. :( And now that my fb friend actually reads this ..fic, I can't help but raise my own expectations of this fic. I do wish I write even better than this. :( All my primary school friends all write better than me. I'm kinda jealous actually. Even if they don't write better than me, their plots are much more creative and interesting. It's a pity they're not fans of DBSK really. >< If they are the fics they write will definitely be of the same standard as Ice. THAT'S HOW TALENTED THEY ARE!

And no, I'm not fishing for compliments. >< I'm kinda getting used to it already haha. The fact that I have 200 subscribers on Asianfanfics makes me happy already. *easily contented* Someday I hope I'll be able to write as successfully as beeswaxing or aquariuslover. :) I guess I just have to work on my English eh? It'll be good if I can write in both English and Chinese too. >< I should start working on my Chinese haha. ><

Alright. Why is this entry so wordy lol? My main point is that I'm really happy that I have 200 subscribers and I'm really thankful to everyone out there who subscribed or has read my fic cause that just makes me feel super mega honoured. >< Thank you guys! ^^

Oh btw, anyone interested to beta my fics or wanna take my storylines? I want to start a new fic (I promised my friend to write this fic.) but I really have no time to actually edit the fic so anyone interested? I'm not even sure how one goes about finding a beta. >< LOL. HELP PEOPLE? ><

UPDATE!

Beta is : _caxiAhtic_ YAY! I'm finding a coauthor though cause like I said I wanna start a new fic.. >< Anyone interested just comment or pm me. ><