god i'm about to cry T_T

I Had the most terrible horrifying dream last night. i had a dream that himchan... DIED.!!!!  i know this may seem off topic to whatever it may seem off topic to, but it scared me. i did have strange thoughts before that night of like ~ how would i feel if one of my beloved idols died?~ 

the most awkward part is, he's not even my bias of b.a.p. (though i love them all :) but in the dream when i found out he died i went into deep depression and started drinking apple juice extensively and i was getting drunk from it...  NOW I KNOW HIS DEATH WOULD NOT EVER BE A LAUGHING MATTER.  its got me thinking how would i feel if a idol i truly adored died...? 

YONGGUK IS MY BIAS AND MY IMAGINARY HUSBAND. if he died i would be crushed!!! T_T 

( I'M just gonna stop thinking about it, i'll be sad if anyone died...) 

how the dream ended was even worse part the manager of the group tried to replace him with u- kwon of block b... O_O 

now don't get me wrong i love u-kwon but really why would he do that? it doesn't even make sense.

he was able to do that because in the dream, block b had already disbanded . :( 

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i can sort of sum up a little of what this weird dream meant. 

1.) me worried about block b's hiatus and praying that they won't disband.

2.) questioning should i make this a fanfic or not (probaly not)

3.) himchan looks like a vampire to me (a adorable one at that) so i think he's dead and will be ressurected and yongguk's blood very seductively (otp thoughts ~bangchan~)