I have never felt so lonely before
when my sister and her guy friend are together and I want to hang out with them, they get quiet and don't talk much.
but now that i'm inside, I can hear them chatting away and laughing.
am I really that much of a bother to be around?
my friend said "there are reasons why you're lonely. The things you do make you lonely."
and I just said "oh."
and her only reply was "exactly."
is it my personality that makes people not want to be around me? If so, I can change. I promise. I just don't want to feel lonely anymore.
I feel like I truly have no friends in my area and only the people on the Internet are my friends.
but even then, they are still not friends.
I can tell them all I want about me, but they truly are not there for me to hug me or verbally, to me, in person, tell me that I am not lonely or that they're there for me.
What if I were to do something to myself and never tell my friends on the Internet? They would never know.
This blog makes me feel lonelier than ever.
I don't have any friends.
At least, not ones that live in my state.
I know there is a lot of people on the Internet I would definetly call my friends if I were to meet them, but what if they get annoyed by me too?
I'm going to end up lonely no matter what.
This feeling balls and I hate it.
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