but this is keeping me alive so yeah....

Okay.

 

Not that kpop related but I want to share this to you guys who might be reading this post.

 

I am only 23 but I feel like I am working my of like I am having a family already. Like seriously. Kpop and Fanfiction are my escape whenever I am tired of working and studying.

For my friends, I am just an ordinary working lady. All of them don't understand why I love kpop so I made friends with others who have the same interests as me--KPOP and Fanfiction.

I celebrated my birthday without the presence of my friend--because she kinda hated the idea that I found another set of friends. I wasn't okay with it of course. We have been friends for too long and it pains me that she acted like. She admited to me that I found new friends so I might just as well forget about her.

I love all my friends. Especially if they are the ones that I talk to and share things and ideas with. But my bestfriend--I can't understand her. 

I am beggining to finally expand my world through KPOP. I mean, the friends that I found through it--I like them very much. It feels like for 23 years, I was finally out of my shell, doing things that wasn't allowed by my parents and finding friends who would accept me, regardless of who I am and what I do.

I am getting excited for all of this then suddenly...

1. My bestfriend actually ignored me for about 1 month now. We're not like that. We talk almost everyday even if we're busy at work. We see each other for random reasons and even without reason at all. But now... she acts as if she doesn't know me at all. Why?

2. My work--it eats up all my time. I like the idea of me being promoted but...why? I am really losing my drive to do my work...but I got to do this for my family and for myself.

3. I wanted to get away from my family for once. I mean. I am already 23. Mom controls me like I'm 15. She told me point-blank that she doesn't want me to have a boyfriend and get married someday. 

I want to fall in love like the characters in the story I made. At least, something like that...

4. Mom doesnt like the idea of me getting into KPOP and Fanfiction. She says it's a waste of time. OMG. Why? Does she really want me to be a shut-in forever? 

Sorry for the rant. I  just can't contain it anymore.

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iibreathexo #1
Ate! Huwag ka ng sad. Tatanda ka agad n'yan, cge ka, baka hindi ka makilala ni Kris n'yan. hehe. :)
Really ate, tama si Hanna, i-smile mo nalang talaga 'yan. Maraming nagmamahal sa'yo. Lalo na sa AFF Pinoy. :)

Ate, huwag kang mawalan ng pag-asa lalo na sa bestfriend mo. Baka darating din ang araw na magkakaayos kayo.
Si mama mo, intindihin mo nalang ate. Ako nga din eh, sabi sa'kin ng mama ko, waste of time lang daw ang kpop. Eh hindi din naman nya 'ko masisisi kong napamahal na ang kpop sa akin. It uplifts me in my befallings time.^^

Kaya ate ha, always wear your smile.
Maaayos din 'yan. Tiwala lang. :D
Ate Cheyenne fighting! :D

P.S: Si Hanna lang ang nag-sneak sa computer class. Sa bahay naman ako. hihi :)
allminsarehandsome #2
d'awww. Ate Chey~ :(
please don't be sad na.
as they all say, you can't please everybody. kasi nga naman iba-iba rin yung pag-iisip ng mga tao.
pero really though, wag mo na lng isipin yung mga problems na yan. instead, be glad kasi you have a new set of challenges to surpass. And no matter how you put it, kakayanin mo yan. With the help of God, of course.
I-smile mo na lng yang mga problems mo.
As for your bestfriend, time will heal everything naman e. Hindi naman pwede na she'll iwas you forever, dba? it depends nga lang on who will make the first move.
Don't worry ate, I'll pray for you.
Hopefully, magiging maayos na ang lahat by next week. :)
HWAITING CHEY UNNIE! :D

P.S. nag-sneak sa computer class. xP
royalcb614 #3
aaw.. i feel you, girl.. but im just 18 and still studying.. but yeah, my mom also thinks that kpop is a waste of time and money(so i always run to my father).. i actually can't imagine what will happen when i grow older. kpop is basically the thing that pushes me through my days..

did i just rant here? *runs away
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