my ex had been trying to seek forgiveness from me for months, and I always said that it's okay, nothing matters, I couldn't even remember what he did wrong when we were in a relationship. I mean, I'm always like that, people call me forgetful, but really, I just select what I want to remember, and most of them are of course the good things.

So yesterday, he asked to meet me because he had something to say and I agreed. We ended our relationship nicely anyway, so I don't have any problem meeting him. He was apologizing again yesterday, and again I said "it's okay, what are you keep apoogizing for?" I've moved on, I was hurt of course, but then it's passed and I don't really remember what he did so wrong that he felt the need to apologize multiple times.

He confessed yesterday that he was cheating when he was with me.

Holy , now, this, I didn't know. at all.

The relationship might had ended, but when we were together I loved him genuinely, I wrote love letters and compiled songs to express my feelings. It's not even about the things I bought or made for him, it's about the time and feeling I wasted on someone who totally didn't appreciate that, holy , the more I write about this the angrier I am.

I thought it was good while it lasted, turns out everything was a lie.

I'm not broken hearted over this fact, I'm humiliated and mad. How dare he, how ing dare he!

I know I will forgive him again later, that's just my nature, but his confession made me feel utterly stupid and angry. How clueless was I? How freaking stupid was I?

I will forgive him, but that's only because I don't want to spend too much time on him, I will forgive and forget, because I know I have better things to think about. His confession came off as a selfish thing to do for me, because he felt guilty, he told me all these. I'm not even sure if it's a better thing I know about this.

Holy I feel like crap.