that if I really want to realise my dreams (that of being able to know other cultures) I should be investing my time in studing a lot, still I'm meddling up with pleople who are actually kind of waisting their time... I mean that's okay but they are bringing me down to thing that I actually don't need! I need to end univerity as soon as possible and with bright result so that I'll be able to find a job as soon as I get out... I'm just hoping I'm not wasting time in friendship that even though important are bringing me nothing but stress and more knowledge of people, fact that's disgusting me, as society is... Plus I'm starting to become paranoid lately about everything... I' guess I'm way too stressed... I want a boyfriend but I'm not actually good judging people and nobody notice me and I was hoping to find one at university but with the course I picked up even though I'm always surrounded by boys their not my type... except for few of them that are obviously already having wonderful stories (Idek XD) I'm tired of being alone but I still don't want to make new friends... just you know I'm fine just knowing someone that I see once in a while, I'm starting to hate everything, is it even normal? -__- I'm tired...