My First Day is exactly the way I imagined it to be. 

IT

IS

THE 

WORST.

I don't like it at all. All I ever wanted awhile ago was to go home so I could not see the people I do not want to see. I don't exactly hate them, if they were choking and I had a glass of water, I would choose to just drink the water. 

It's my last year and I have to be with them??? Sure it's fun that my friends and I got to see each other again.

It's just that I feel like every move I make, i feel like I'm being judged. It just feels so suffocating and I admit... I feel scared. One of those girls is my ex-bestfriend and I don't know why but I feel terrified. 

Is it okay just to cry because you feel scared? Is it okay to be vulnerable just this once? But if I show them a hint of weakness, there is a higher chance I would be attacked.

you can call this overthinking but I just don't know what to do. I don't even know but I'm trying to hold back the tears.