Err...so I'm back? Kind of? XD

For those of you who have been worried/anxious/confused about my absence, I sincerely apologize. I saw the blogpost that Averyl made many months ago to somehow explain why I was gone but I think I owe it to you guys to explain clearly. 

So many long months ago, I experienced coughing fits and shortness of breath that spanned a few days. I thought that it was simply the result of an allergy attack or my asthma so I continued taking my medication and my inhaler whenever I felt like I couldn't breathe. I had a temperature by then but I didn't really mind it, I'm often down with colds and fevers so it wasn't anything new to me but a week later I couldn't leave my bed anymore, my fever hadn't let up and my heart rate and blood pressure was erratic. My parents rushed me to the emergency room then and a few days later, it was found out that an infection had traveled to my heart and damaged my heart valves. I was being heavily medicated and observed for a few weeks after that but the damage to my heart valves was extensive that I wasn't going to survive for long without surgery.

I don't remember the surgery itself nor the several days that followed it, I was still under at that time, and it was only a few months later that my mom told me that my heart had almost stopped beating at one point. She wouldn't let go of my hand weeks after the operation so it was then that I realized just how scared she was when she almost lost me.

The longest and most painful part though, was the recovery. I had to stay in the hospital for months after that, then at a rehabilitation center just so I could have nurses and doctors monitor me all the time and could only come home March this year. And even then I was still bedridden.

But anyway, I won't elaborate on all the angst and drama in between but the main point is that I'm okay now, I'm taking better care of myself and I'll try not to disappear so suddenly like that again. 

To all the friends/readers/people I've made worry, thank you so much for caring and I am so sorry that I've made you worry for even a second. And I'm now in the process of writing fanfics again so I'll hopefully be able to update everything in the near future.

If you message me or post on my wall, I'll always reply okay? Maybe not right away because I still have to go out and do school things or go to the hospital for weekly checkups but I will reply as soon as I am able.

Lastly, I missed everyone, this site, the fanfics, my friends, everyone ok so I'll just---/huggles everyone forever/

Sincerely,

Alex