1. How many fics have you started? (No matter how few it is, you can give yourself a pat on the back for demonstrating initiative.)

            I have 46 stories out, but there are 3 or 4 that have been started but aren’t ready to be posted just yet.

 

2. How many fics have you completed? (Now, if it's greater than zero, you can give yourself another pat on the back for demonstrating commitment.)

 

I suppose I can count short stories and one shots as well? I have completed 41 in total. Of those 41, I’ve completed 14 chaptered stories ranging from 12 chapters to 80 chapters. Now that I’m counting these things, I’m a little surprised.

 

 

3. What is your very first fic? What inspired and motivated you to write it? How do you feel and what do you think about it now?

I can’t recall if I wrote a Henwook as my first story, or if I wrote that after I started working on my Eunhyuk X Henry story. Well, the one that’s more prominent in my memory and more prevalent to this question is Without Love/Through Love stories. The first story “Without Love” was actually something I wrote after my friend and I decided to have a contest to see who writes better lol. Our friend was the judge and she chose the couple Eunhyuk X Henry (I’m not sure why…) but after that, I just kept the story. I was interested in it and I felt like I could expand so much more…and that’s exactly what happened. Looking back, it was a really fun story to write. Back then, I was just satisfied with having one or two comments every few chapters…and sometimes I wish I still had that mentality. However, I feel like as I’ve grown, I’ve also become too exposed to lengthy, meaningful comments. I can’t go back to those simpler times. As for the story, when I think about it, it makes me want to go back and write more of that couple.

 

 

4. Which fic of yours do you think is the most well-written? Why?

In terms of “well-written” I would say stylistically, it is hands-down “Muse in His Court”. I worked endlessly to make that text flow, but honestly speaking, it didn’t do much for readers. The couple wasn’t popular, and thus the story wasn’t so popular. In my humble opinion though, that’s the most beautiful fanfiction I’ve ever written and I wish dearly that it could have gotten more feedback, because when I put so much effort into something like that, I want as many opinions as possible.

 

 

5. Which fic of yours is the most poorly written? Why?
I’ll probably get a lot of complaints for saying this…but I think “Last Breath” and “Soft Heart” are the most poorly written stories posted on my AFF. They aren’t necessarily bad stories, because I love Soft Heart’s idea and Last Breath’s idea for that matter. Neither of them are something I take pride in from a purely author standpoint. I’m endlessly flattered by the praise and support both stories received and still receive at times, but I would not name those two as my best work.

 

 

6. Which fic is your favorite out of the ones you've written? Why?

Strangely, authors tend to adore the stories that others don’t. I’ve never understood why and I still don’t. Why do I say that? Because my favorite story I’ve ever written is “Chasing the Drop” which was a complete and utter failure to the point of deleting it. I couldn’t get any feedback on the piece and so I couldn’t find a reason for keeping it posted. I literally love that story and the one person who did offer my a comment only did so to assure me that the writing was good. That wasn’t enough though. I wanted someone to tell me about the characters, possibly critique me or tell me what they thought of the plot because I was so proud of everything. The characterizations, the plotline, the idea, the dialogue, detail, writing style…all of it was perfect in my eyes. Yet I couldn’t get a single opinion on the text. Chasing the Drop is my all time favorite and it’s sad that I won’t be sharing it anymore.

 

7. Which fic is your least favorite out of the ones you've written? Why?

“Last Breath” is my least favorite by far. Well, okay, not that far. I still like the idea, but I didn’t execute it properly, thus causing me to loathe its current existence. I want to repair it because I was so dissatisfied by it. I can’t help that. It had to be my least favorite though, because of how little effort I put into it. I would quite literally post crap chapters that carried barely an ounce of my thoughts and sincerity, yet it was exploding with popularity. That certainly irked me as stories I slaved over received nothing in terms of critique or praise.

 

 

8. Which character that you've written (does not have to be an oc; can be your portrayal of an idol) do you believe most closely resembles you?

I’m not sure if resembles is the most accurate word to describe this character and me. All of my stories and characters are based on feelings and experiences I’ve had personally or can properly portray. Granted, I do take emotions and events and amplify them to correctly capture the depth of something. However, everything that I do is a reflection of some moral I believe in or that I’m exploring with some amount of curiosity and/or fascination. The character I most resemble though, has to be Ryeowook from “Winning Hearts”. I deeply resonate with his absolute belief in love and trust and loyalty. I remember crying and hurting so frequently while writing that story, just because I could feel his emotions to truly, since I know that if I ever lost a loved one, I would never recover. I love Kyuwook though, and that’s really the only reason they ended up happy in the end. If it had been any other character, I would’ve had Ryeowook grow old and die alone.

 

 

9. What are the most common topics and themes that dominate your stories?

I focus on different perspectives on love and relationships of any kind. If someone has read all or many of my stories, I hope they’ve come to have a versatile view on love, friends, family, loyalty, and other relationship-oriented things. I like to express a message on life and morality to my readers. I feel like any sort of writing, fanfiction or published, should always aim for a message, so even if the writing style is lacking, I strive to press my theme forward. I also enjoy exploring ideas of life and loss and what it means to be happy.

 

 

10. What do you think are your strengths when it comes to writing? Be specific.

The emotion. As I’ve stated in the above question, I have an excessive emphasis on themes of human-human contact. To portray that properly, I have to have some sort of skill in portraying human emotion. I usually just exaggerate my own emotions or the emotions I’ve seen and felt in others. I don’t do much else when I write. Everything is very impulsive. I write chapters on the fly and post them because when I outline or draft, I feel like the soul of the story is being out.

 

11. What do you think are your weaknesses when it comes to writing? Be specific.

Pacing. Sometimes it’s right on track, but a lot of the time, I’m using smoke and mirrors to make the pacing issues less prominent. I usually can’t figure out good ways to transition, because I want to get everything out quickly. I’ve been getting better at it in “Chasing the Drop,” which is also probably a reason I like that story so much. It brings out my calmer, more detail-oriented side.

 

 

12. In what ways do you think you have improved since you first began writing fan fiction?

I’ve slowly eased out of 1-Dimensional love and cliché fanfiction. I mean, to be honest, when I first started writing, I was mimicking the key elements that were in my friend’s stories. Over time, I drifted away from that and now I can barely write a scene without blushing and questioning the necessity for it.

 

 

13. In what ways do you think your writing reflects you?

It completely reflects my views and morals. I can’t detach myself from something that I’m creating with my own hands and thoughts. If writing were commercial, I would be broke. I can’t write passionately when I’m not passionate. There can be little distinction between the thoughts of a story and myself. However, it becomes an issue of which side I’m on in a story.

 

 

14. Why do you write?
I write fanfiction for the fans. I write it to feed my need for young adult fiction (because published YA is poor these days). I just write because I like to watch myself improve and experiment. AFF is a place where I can play around with my style and the characters, making it that much more fantastic. In general though, writing is another hobby that can hold my attention for hours on end. That’s good enough a reason for me to write.

 

 

15. How do you evaluate yourself as a writer? How do you define your success a writer?
I think I’m writing like a reader should write. I don’t know how else to put it. To say I’m successful isn’t quite right and to say the opposite is wrong as well. I do what I believe a writer should do, and that is writing from a reader’s perspective. I only create what I know as a reader I would enjoy. A writer’s success isn’t determined at all by the number of people who read or the number of comments. Just like anything else, it’s the quality of the writing and if there’s someone smart enough to read your work thoroughly and massively fall in love with it, then I would say that’s worth thousands of readers and thousands of interested souls.

 

16. What do you think it means to be a writer?

A writer is only slightly less vague than an artist. For me, a writer is someone who takes their raw imagination and weaves it into a beautiful tapestry of words and emotions and dreams and ideals and hatred and disgust…pain and realism. It’s the world’s longest, most complex band of time. If a writer can see their black and white text as something so powerful and breathtaking, then the world would be a better place, I think. There’s nothing more that I can say, because this is how I view myself. I strive to weave a tapestry of color and intrigue. Writer’s can bring any old thing to life.