Everybody's infatuated over someone; whether its out of admiration or romantic attraction.
And for most of us, even if the feeling's never to be reciprocated, we remain silently happy just seeing their presence.

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Darkness multiplied as the dusk came
    Low chatters filled the room, lazy thoughts unable to tame
    His voice supersedes along with the pen’s squeak
    Everytime he stopped, the others turn meek

    Black shoes rub the glazed flooring
    Fingers drum repeatedly, constantly hoping
    The flick of interest was long gone
    Their eyes now linger on the walls with shade of fawn

    Will they ever see the hand over twelve
    Or end up drained from the day, losing themselves?

    Jolly chants and loud cheers
    Her blurred vision seeks upon stepping out
    What is this insane feeling, her mind fears
    Assumptions crushed, her dark lips immediately pouts

    Pulled by her friends, she smiled
    Something new, something old;
    This time she surely have missed
    Stay for a while, and do what your mind has told.

    From the corner of her eye, she knew he was there
    His stare quite unable to bear
    Hands run through the rough fabric of strap
    As her eyes fell immediately onto their laps

    She longed for his cheery voice and smile
    But her heart felt dreary, with this distance feeling like a mile
    Although her feet wanted to take her there
    She knew her friends had something else to share

    And from where she was planted, she could only glance
    Wait and see, who would make the first stance
    Why was everything beginning to complicate
    Why do they even have to hesistate?

    (November 16, 2012)

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I wrote this poem a long time ago, when I was filled with assumptions over a friend whom I thought had feelings for me. I didn't get rejected though, for I never even confessed. Now he's happily together with a much better girl. Until now we remain friends; with him no knowledge of my forever hidden feelings.

Its sad sometimes, isn't it? When we can't choose the ones we love to actually love us back. And it to know sometimes that we can't easily express how we truly feel for a friend for the sake of not ruining the friendship.

Thank you for giving your precious time on this very 'emo' post. :)