Hello There!

Gaaahh!! I don't know where to start! :((
 okay i'll just tell you guys the whole story okay? Then help me on what should i do.

There's this guy.. he was my bestfriend ever since we were in elementary school, and now we are both in a different country at first we were still talking thru facebook but then we kinda laid down a little bit because we're both busy.. At school i told to one of my new friends(girls) about him and about what i felt for him.. It was October back then, She suggested me to tell him about my feelings.. so one day i had the courage to tell him everything, but then.. he didn't reply, i was waiting for 2 days before he replied and he said.. "Sorry i wasn't able to reply you i had a fever. So, i didn't know that you like me but don't worry liking someone is a sign that your growing.. Anyway we're still friends, right?" That's what he replied so me as being stupid as ever i told him "Yeah sure nothing will change, we're still friends i just wanted to tell you how i felt for you."

Then December 31 2012 i was waiting for New Year to come so i opened my facebook account to make a post.. just then i saw him online i wanted to say Happy new year but then i didn't coz i felt like it's kinda akward for me to do that, so i didn't do it., The next morning January 1 2013 i opened my facebook account to see new thing... But then something caught my eyes.. " ......... ......... is in a relationship with .......... ....... <3 " It was him with another girl that he met last September! I was still on my bed so i thought i might be dreaming so i tried to sleep again but i can't it was true.. they were really in a ralationship. :(( What a great start of my New Year..

After months they broke up and i didn't know.. Until i talked to him last week. I asked him how is he and his girl and he said that the girl broke up with him and he didn't know the reason why so he was depressed at the moment, so being a best friend i made some jokes for him to laugh even through they were corny as ever! Last week we always talked until the day, when my idiot friend used my phone and logged in into my account ( It was automatic log in) She saw that he was online so, she talked to him like how are you?, Wassuuup things like that, later on she asked him "Hey! I'm not '''(me)'' i'm her friend, i wanted to ask you this: Do you like my friend?"

And he said that he can't answer that at night i checked my phone and i saw their conversations at first i didn't know what to do so i just said sorry to him for being careless.. When Saturday came my aunties had a party so i slept in my cousin's house we were drunk that time (i'm a minor but i drink, don't worry i just drink vodka nothing else) I saw him on, i'm kinda playful when i get drunk so i talked to him and asked him the same question that my friend asked.. At first he really won't speak so i decided to make a trap for him

i said ' Hey! I just found someone who i want to marry!!'

him: Who's the guy?

Me: Why? Are you curious?

Him: Yeah..

Me: Whyyyy??

Him: Because i've known you for a very long time plus other reasons..

Me: Other reasons likeeee???

After 10 minutes

Him: Stop it. Okay i give up I Like You, okay?

Then that's it he said he likes me. I don't know if i should be happy or sad now.. Coz i think i went too far.. i asked him those thing when i know that his girlfriend just broke up with him and he's having depression right now..

Every morning i sent him messages like " Hey! It's already morning don't forget to smile!' I always tell him to smile coz he said that he likes seeing me smiling..

Am i going to far? Just because i like him for 2 years by now?

Guys help!! I don't know what to do! I think i made the wrong move! I feel like a selfish brat.. :((

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Hey guys!

First of all thank you for all of your counsils but i think i made up my mind...

I'm going to let him go since he won't even reply to me anymore.. I'll just try to focus on other activities and let myself to be busy , In that way i can atleast stop thinking about him. I know i gave up already but since we're far from each other i think it would be difficult to be in a relationship like that. In any case that he and his girlfriend might get back together, i'll just find myself another guy too. LOL as if i can do it.

Anyways.. Thank You thank you!!!!!!