Youth

W h a t   i s   i t   t o   y o u   e x a c t l y ?

It’s nothing really but I’ve just suddenly come to realize something really important. It’s been stuck on my mind for quite a while now and I figured why not write about it.

It’s nothing dramatic but a deep question just filled up my mind for a while.

The happiness, the friendship, the carefree feeling of being a child. Well, how long is all that going to last?

The more I think about it, the more clear it becomes and the answer just totally hit me.

Not forever.

As much as I hate to say it, we’re growing up each day and every moment in our lives. I’m heading to highschool next year, and within 4 more years, I’m out to pursue my career and future. Some people might think 4 years is a long, but to me, it’s not enough.

Time flies faster than we can live our life and after those 4 years of being in highschool, well, the question lingers in my head. What will happen?

We’ll be heading off to universities and going towards our own future. We’d be adults by then, each with the responsibility of building our own lives. The carefree act of being a child would be long gone by then and that pains me.

I’ve been so used to being a total kid, not caring a single thing about the world. I live my life off of happiness and smiles and that’s all that matters. But lately, I’ve grown to realize that I can’t stay like that forever. My future is right ahead of me, and to be speaking honestly, I’m quite scared of where I’ll be heading.

But just today, I spent my day with a couple friends. I don’t have a lot of close friends, only a few but those people are the ones that mean the world to me. I honestly don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have them. Honestly, we’re what we could call complete idiots. But I guess thats what I love so much about them. People could call us freaks or retards for all I care but I love them and that’s all that matters.

And the more time we spent today having fun and being idiots, the more I realized the one fact.

There was no need for me to be worried.

Yes, there will be a day when we’ll all be headed off towards our future and parting ways, but for now, all we have to do is do our best and enjoy the happiness while it’s still here. My mom always claimed that there is no need for friends and they won’t last forever but I don’t think so. Friends are my source of life and without them, I’d be nothing.

And I believe that if we do get seperated in the future, there will be a day when we all meet again in our own little paradise and turn back into those carefree children that we truly are deep down inside.

Youth.

It’s an important thing to me.

I can’t forever live my life as child but I should enjoy it while it lasts. The carefreeness, happiness and smiles. I’ll live my youthful days full of those things as much as I can so when it’s time to move on, I have nothing left to regret.

--iSoul