im a ing crying mess right now. I would make this filed with Yesung pics and such but i'll do that tomorrow as a tribute blog. Anyways...i bet most of u know that Kim Jongwoon is enlisting on the 6th only two days away....probbaly a few hrs over 24hrs for korea. Honestly I'm scared. I'm scared of saying goodbye and waiting for two years. I'm scared to suddenly lose that beautiful voice that supports  me. I know it's for the best so he can come back soon...but it's hard saying goodbye even though it's not even face to face. Yesung's too special. To be honest I feel like I've mistreated my idolizing for him. There I said it and I'm going to finish. I feel like I've been so caught up with aff and it's competitive air with writing even though my writing that I haven't properly watched a super junior vid and laughed my off before crying my eyes out the next minute. I feel like it's been so long since I last sat down on twitter, facebook, sup3rjunior.com, youtube, tumblr, anything, and stalked super junior on anything and everything. I feel like it's been so long since I've properly loved him. and i hate myself for it. I realized how stupid I freaking am to even get into aff. Heck I'm cutting my aff time in half just to watch super junior videos. But it's too late...before I could fix my mistake...he's leaving too soon for me to make it up. I don't want him to leave yet. Everything feels so unrealistic. Now I'm just replaying "Waiting for you" over and over again while i cry and ignore my need for tissues as i msg all this yesung enlistment stuff to Dani. 

"I wait for you until the end of the world

I wait for you until fate forbids it~"