I don't know what to do. My heart is so mixed up. Sometimes I think of the guy that I am not suppose to think of, and there is this one guy which shows interest in me but I don't like him. He is ONE EMOTIONAL and SENSITIVE guy so i really don't wanna hurt him. He's really a nice guy , but I just don't have feelings for him. On the other hand, the guy that has the girlfriend attracts. Which is . Because he has a girlfriend. Im not really into him, but I kinda get a bit happy when he sees me and says hi and such stuff in school. ARGGH omg WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE. This . REALLY. 

Okay this is getting messy. Let's label the guys. The 2 guys above are A  and B. I like A , and B likes me. But Guy C , who happens to be a SUPER CLOSE FRIEND , happens to like me too. I always catch him looking at my direction during class for no reason. D is also another guy who shares secrets with me, just like how I share with him. I didn't know D liked me until my friend told me she could see that D likes me. WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME . It's not a good thing to have guys liking you at this time , when Im having puppy love with the WRONG GUY. 

My mind is in a mess , so as my heart. I sometimes feel that A likes me a bit , but I cant confirm. He sometimes looks at me, and the fact that I am OLDER than me by a 2 months, he dislikes me using the word younger brother and feels that he is older in a way that he is stronger bulit. He and I stopped talking on whatsapp because I feel that it is awkward. But today in school he saw me and gave a smile and wave at me, I felt kinda happy inside of me. Then we didnt talk till end of class where his class was still on but he and my other friend came into my class when I was with B,C and D . I was waiting for my girlfriend , who happens to be in the same class as A. He came in and I was laughing because one of my close friend , E , was tellling a joke. I saw him and I said HELLO XIAO DI ( Little brother ) and he kinda got angry and .. disappointed ? I don't know, he left the class in lesss than 5 minutes after I said that. Ops. I don't know if that hurt him or what. Later , we walked back as a group , E misunderstand what I said and thought we were going to eat dinner together. 

I tapped into the MRT and they swamped at me like bees LOL , asking why arent we eating. I explained to them then they all got into the MRT together , laughing because they misunderstood. But A was disappointed . He said ,' I thought we were eating so...' My girlfriend was like okay , bye . I turned and said bye and he said bye too. it just ended like that. WASN'T IT AWKWARD. Damn. Gosh , I really don't know what deep am I in.