I've tried to be open and friendly. but it doesn't matter.

I've tried to smile more, to be sweet and put myself out there. It doesn't matter.

Maybe I'm just not good enough for anyone. Maybe I should go back to staring at the ground as I walk.

When you try it hurts. When you put yourself out there you get rejected.

If I go back to being quiet and pushing everyone away, I will hurt less. and no one will notice that I've gone back to my caccoon will they?

Because it doesn't matter.

I like staying by myself. being alone, and feeling lonely, will feel better than being pushed away. yeah.