100 Truths + reasons as to why I've been absent + news about my life.
We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created-- okay, I'll stop. This was stolen from violetmoons (baby forget those people, okay? and don't be suicidal anymore). But first, here are the reasons why I've been absent:
- Now, the reason for my absence is the fact that I'm trying to avoid the Internet for a while. I've also grown quite a bit... bored, so to say, with how things are going on the Internet nowadays including AFF. No, it does not mean I'll be leaving (because I'm still here), it's just that I won't be on as much.
- I also apologize dearly for the people I haven't replied to for ages. You guys are probably waiting for my replies, and I apologize if you have been seeming to wait for nothing. Trust me, you aren't.
- I also didn't update my story “I'm Heart-Over-Head In Love With You” because of, well, writer's block. I currently have a pre-chapter written and I'm not sure when to publish it. I have yet to grasp a clear understanding of reasons as to how colonies go into war against each other before I publish it. Mini hiatus, but not an official one.
- And I have been reading the Harry Potter series (ERMARGERD WHY DIDN'T I START EARLIER), now on the 2nd book. I started last week, so I'm zooming by fast. I just love how things are going on now, omg.
Now, the promised news.
- Sunday this week, I had the opportunity to sing solo at church. Now, I was shaking and sweating quite abnormally (even during practice. The microphone left my hand soaked in sweat) and I felt like crying, running away, or throwing up. But I managed to survive, and a received a few pats on my back after the service. It felt great.
- We have 2 tests (tomorrow, the 24th, and the day after that, the 25th). They are state-wide tests (which means the entire state of Texas will have to take it), and we are being tested on science and U.S. History. Please pray I pass the science one, I have no trouble with history, it's just that I badly at science and I don't want to fail myself and my parents.
- I've grown to like someone from my school! It's a slight crush, and I'm happy I actually felt something for someone in like, a really long time. Comment for more information.
And here are the truths.
Have you ever:
1) Self harmed?
Have I... No.
2) Got into a real fight?
No.
3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
Yes.
4) Tried to commit suicide?
Yes.
5) Had to lie to everyone about how you felt?
Yes. But then I end up telling them because you know, feels.
6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
No.
7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
Yes. Or. Never because I've never been in any serious trouble.
8) Accused someone of using you?
Not necessarily.
9) Cried yourself to sleep?
Like, once or twice. I never do it anymore though because my face is all gross in the morning with dried up tears.
10) Gotten drunk/high?
No.
11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?
Not... really. I don't remember much.
12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
Not really.
(Right now) Are you:
13) Suicidal?
No.
14) Bored?
No.
15) Avoiding someone?
Yes.
16) Avoiding some task?
Yes.
17) Depressed?
No.
18) Crying?
No.
19) Annoyed with a friend?
LOL.
20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
...Did I forget something again...?
Do you:
21) Get depressed easily?
I get sad easily, but not depressed. I've never been, you know, classified as having this illness.
22) Get jealous/envious easily?
Yes.
23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things?
Yes.
24) Worry about messing up your relationships with people?
Yes.
25) Try hard in all your classes at school?
I wouldn't say all of them.
26) Go out drinking?
No.
27) Smoke cigarettes?
No.
28) Smoke weed?
No.
29) Do any hard drugs?
No.
30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why?
Stop.
31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will?
Believe in God. Christian.
32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
Yes, actually. I'm sorry about that.
33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?
Not for the most part.
Not for the most part.
34) Believe people deserve second chances?
I would love to say that.
35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’ (ignoring the religious relation to that saying)?
Not necessarily.
36) Think things will get better?
Definitely.
37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
Yes, but I deserve to be punished.
38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you?
I fail at not judging people even though I preach the message of “Don't judge a book by its cover”.
Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend (BE HONEST):
39) Long hair OR short hair?
Not my problem.
40) Nice smile OR nice abs?
Nice smile. Like, seriously. You can't fall in love with someone's abs, it's not like people walk around shirtless all the time.
41) Nice smile OR nice chest?
This was supposed to be for guys, but I'm gonna say: smile.
42) Shy OR open?
Shy and open.
43) Eyes OR body?
Eyes.
44) Religious OR non-religious?
Religious. You know when they believe in God they're gonna treat you with respect.
45) Caring OR non-restricting of you?
Caring.
46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge?
Should I Google this or not?
47) Piercings OR no piercings?
No piercings, please.
48) Tattoos OR no tattoos?
No tattoos either.
49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?
Quiet stay-at-home who knows when and how to have fun. But more on the quiet stay-at-home, I like just being safe and cuddly indoors.
50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with?
Parents.
Would you:
51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?
No. I hate alcohol.
52) Smoke weed?
No.
53) Smoke cigarettes?
No.
54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?
No.
55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
Yes.
56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you?
No.
57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what?
Yes.
58) Join a band as a part time activity?
Well, it depends on the context the word ‘band’ is used in this inquiry.
59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?
Yes.
60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them?
Actually, no. I'd rather just pray for their well-being.
61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like?
Sure. I need a bit of weight-losing, especially around in the stomach part.
62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?
No.
63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?
LOL.
64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?
Try to.
65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a to other people?
I already am, but I guess the best way is to distant myself a little.
66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?
No.
67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them to put up with your problems?
Yes. But I mean, if they really wanna know then I'm gonna have to give in.
68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?
No.
69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you?
No, unless it is under any health circumstances.
70) Sleep ?
No.
You can only choose one:
71) Black or Orange?
Black.
72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore?
Or.
73) Cellphone or Computer?
Cellphone.
74) Chocolate milk OR Coke?
Chocolate milk.
75) Tumblr OR Friends?
Or. Although I have been pretty idle on Tumblr.
76) Apple OR PC?
PC. Apple's too complicated for me.
77) TV Shows OR Movies?
Movies. NO ADS.
78) Old bands OR new Bands?
Or.
79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock?
Or.
80) Reading OR Listening to music?
Reading. I can always hum while reading.
81) Coke OR Pepsi?
Coke. -“Ohh~ Ohh~ Ohh~ When I get older, I will be stronger, they'll call me freedom just like a waving flag~”-
82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?
Staying who I am.
83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge?
Insert question mark here.
84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for the choice.
KELLIN. Sleeping with Sirens~
85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice.
No.
86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary?
Or.
87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?
Europe.
88) Shoes OR Shirts?
Shirts.
89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence?
I've heard of Suicide Silence, but I'm picking neither.
90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice.
Stay at school and finish my education. It's common sense, man, either stay at school or work at McDonald's.
Almost over:
91) So far have you told 90 truths?
Sure.
92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family?
Yes.
Yes.
93) Do you want to travel when you are older?
Yes.
94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?
Funny thing is, you never really let go of any one to follow your dreams. Those people want you to follow your dreams. Once you go forward, they'll always be there to catch you back when something goes wrong.
95) Did you notice there are no related questions?
I was surprised.
96) Rather be the opposite gender?
No, I'm happy being a normal girl.
97) What will your son/daughter's name be?
I would like my husband and I's names to be combined to form the names of our children. You know. Sentiments.
98) Do you get harassed more than most people do?
No. What's there to harass in me, I'm a talking slug.
No. What's there to harass in me, I'm a talking slug.
99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.
I appreciate the fact that other people have different views about music than me.
100) What makes a bad person in your mind?
Someone who does not have morals.
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