I have 69 blog posts and I just want to make that number disappear, okai. Taken from ErisChaotica, ghibliesque, OrioleEnsor. In that order.

[ 1 ] How many fics have you started? (No matter how few it is, you can give yourself a pat on the back for demonstrating initiative.)

Eighteen. /pat/ Including the deleted ones, twenty-one. /un-pat/ But I plan on finishing the eighteen, okay. /pat/

[ 2 ] How many fics have you completed? (Now, if it’s greater than zero, you can give yourself another pat on the back for demonstrating commitment.)

Nine. /pat/ Ohmigosh, guise. I seem to like multiples of three!

[ 3 ] What is your very first fic? What inspired and motivated you to write it? How do you feel and what do you think about it now?

A TSfamily (plus other idols and OCs) fic whose hackneyed theme and title will forever be lost to oblivion. It had character profiles and gangstuhz and queenkas and errathang. It was nice, but so convoluted and overpopulated to a point that, while planning, I foresaw that the story wouldn't be completed by the ninetieth chapter. At the time, I was a silent reader of dbskgirl4ever after a friend recommended her B.A.P fic. I like writing, and I wanted to try out the lightness that seemed to be popular on AFF; so, when I did, I followed all the trends. Being my offbeat self, it was of course a very strange approach to the cliche. Really, if I'd been able to pull it off, it would have been readable, though unbearably complicated.

My first fic that remains visible is Under the Moonlight. I had, back then, recently discovered that people on AFF do contests, and I decided to join a bunch of them (bonus: it was Pensieve a.k.a. Jelly-idol's, and dat was how I saesang'd on her). C-Clown had, by then, established itself as my main bias group; so I wrote it with an OT6 friendship in mind. Procrastination got it disqualified, anyway. Which reminds me that I should get to completing that, because it hasn't been updated since.

[ 4 ] Which fic of yours do you think is the most well written? Why?

Prismatic. Planning, research, writing about ten thousand words; oh, wait: let dah gurl be blind becuz u can juxtapose wid main plot. Scrap original writing, plan, research moar, write three thousand words, revise, post. I swear, the end product is better than the others I've written. Plot, character development (even if it's so short), world-building, originality. Also longer than all the others.

Also Every Single Step, because psychological is definitely my pet genre. I hate it for not having C-Clown, but it makes good use of the idols' names and exaggerated obsessiveness. Also, schizophrenia and depression.

[ 5 ] Which fic of yours do you think is the most poorly written? Why?

Orkhis Draconis and Ghostwritten, because they were written to be bad. The second is a self-insertion with dark humour (nobody but Rainbow gets it, though). The first parodies AFF's fixation with pictures and EXO, represented by Kris (I will not tag teh group, no please), and also the fanfiction community's overly high regard for slash.

Glass Houses has an outstanding premise spoiled and wasted, simply because I couldn't be inspired enough without my muses as main characters. Catching Cars is heavily underdeveloped, but I like it as it is; it pleases me in its raw, written-within-three-hours form. Darkroom is pretty stupid as a written piece, but people apparently like it for the twist.

[ 6 ] Which fic is your favorite out of the ones you’ve written? Why?

Afterthought. I like it when I can prove a point, and I did: scripts can be good. Though not outstanding, it is entertaining.

[ 7 ] Which fic is your least favorite out of the ones you’ve written? Why?

Every Single Step and Glass Houses, due to bias and general stupidity.

[ 8 ] Which character that you’ve written (does not have to be an OC; can be your portrayal of an idol) do you believe most closely resembles you?

Ri Ah in Ghostwritten, because that is me, parodied and psycho-tised. Also apathetic Hyunil, in Prismatic.

[ 9 ] What are the most common topics and themes that dominate your stories?

Regular, occasional meetings as the only source of interaction between characters. I had a boyfriend once, and we'd meet for one hour every Sunday, even though we lived in the same city and studied in the same tiny university; I romanticised that heavily, I guess.

Idols' alternative names as major plot devices.

Schizophrenia. Depression. Delusions. How nothing is ever as it seems.

[ 10 ] What do you think are your strengths when it comes to writing? Be specific.

World-building and conceptualisation. It is my favourite part of writing, actually. It's the only thing I can do right.

[ 11 ] What do you think are your weaknesses when it comes to writing? Be specific.

I tend to focus on one thing too much, and the entire story becomes unclear, so everything seems forced or rushed. I cannot develop characters and the plot well because of it. Also, I use far too much nonsensical imagery. I as a writer. As a writer of purple prose, though. Well.

[ 12 ] In what ways do you think you have improved since you first began writing fan fiction?

My first fic was completed on January, so there isn't much improvement. I am more willing to write longer stories now, though. Also, perhaps, the actions are more clearly narrated.

[ 13 ] In what ways do you think your writing reflects you?

My life views, my twisted fantasies and my interests all somehow make it into my stories. I am not a very idealistic person, and I try to keep things real in my work.

[ 14 ] Why do you write?

Writing is a form of release, and also a way to live. I seriously cannot envision life without writing.

[ 15 ] How do you evaluate yourself as a writer? How do you define your success a writer?

I evaluate myself by comparing my own work with those of others. I always request for reviews, because I need every comment I can get as somebody with a minimal number of readers.

I never trust my own writing to be good; just bearable.

I consider being able to write as success, because not many people choose to do it, and people don't want me to write, anyway.

For a story to be a personal success, I just need to read it over and revise, repeating as neccessary.

[ 16 ] What do you think it means to be a writer?

It means taking out a bit of your mind and your heart, and putting it out for the world to see in a flurry of words.

We don't always get an audience, but to pluck it out of our meditations is enough, because that in itself takes courage.