I was relieved.. relieved that I feel like myself much more now..Well.. i have been emotionally up side down like a roller for the last 10 month... Just thinking of it make me cringe.. I have been making things harder for me to handle... But today.. i fee happy.. i feel relaxed and jumpy... any happy word is the word that can describe me today though... I even change my profile picture to my real picture.. weird... but i am going to put it for 24 hour and removed it.. anyone want to see my face??.. LOL... * I always been tight with my picture anyway..

I feel much better though my body still hurting... I actually get to see some sun light today..and some fresh air...  I want to scream and sigh for a long time cause i don't know how much i will get to stay happy like this...

I don't know how much time left for me to smile... I want to treasure every second of my self... I want to draw, to paint and to write every lovely moment in my mind... life always been hard and I cherish every moment I loved... 

But having you by my side is my strength to stay alive, though I am weak, I am coward and I am no one.. I am content to have you..

Stay with me forever, My Tenshi...

I love you and i will go gay and die just for you..