Hey guys~ I'm sorry for not updating my story . /sigh/ There's many thing happened in my life . So now , I need some advices from guys~ 

It's about my friend . No , ex-friend .[Yuni]  

I once had a bestfriend . We met on 2010. When the first day I met her , we didn't talk because I thought that she's look like a dive and such in my opinion . After 3 days , I saw she's alone eating at the canteen . My other friend[Izz] and I approached her and asked her to join us . She agreed . From that incident , we all became bestfriend .

We all shared the same interest . Like playing volleyball . We got chose to represent our school in volleyball . But Yuni can't go because of his brother graduation . One day , she brought her phone to school and played 2PM and Super Junior song . I asked her about that song . She then told me about K-Pop . From that , I had interest in K-Pop . 

1 year passed . 2011 arrived . We got in different class . That make me feel so sad . But we still hang out together when recess time . We participated 'Choral Speaking' together . Such a memorable moment . I really love my friends back then . My classmates always tease us like : 

'Hey , you three always together . Are you twins?' 

'Hey , M[me] . When you want to wear glasses? Yuni and Izz already wore it. If you also to wear it . You three must be like 'three twin glasses'.' 

And many more . I still remebered the last day Yuni and me talked . We had a camp that time . After that camp , she still talked to me . But a week after that she doesn't talk to me anymore . She always go recess first without me and Izz . It freaking me out . I really didn't know why . 

I decided to talk to her . Then , she cam to my class and yelled at me . 

'WHAT DO YOU WANT?!!' It scared me . I didn't lie though . Then , I just answered 'nothing' and asked her to get back to her class . The next day , I ask her classmates about why she avoided me . Her classmated heard tha Yuni said that I'm arrogant , jerk , and such . It hurt me so much . I cried right there . Not caring the weird look from my cousin and my ex-bf . [My and my ex-bf were classmate with Yuni] I really don't know what my fault to her . I already apologized . But she didn't forgave me . 

We never talked to each other after that . I never felt so hurt like that . It's even more hurt than when my ex- bf wanted to break up . So much pain . I keep living like usual with Izz . My classmate really mad at Yuni . They even say that she's ^%$^&*&^%$%^&*(*&^%$#$%^. [You know that word] 

I don't clearly remembered but I think it's August or July . My school held and assembly . It's near to holiday [Holiday for Hari Raya AidilFitri , If you're Muslim , I'm sure you knew about Hari Raya] . My teacher a song about Hari Raya . While the others go shake hand with the teachers and friend . I just sat at the back and cried hardly . 

Yuni went to me and hugged me tightly . I cried harder on her shoulder . My bad . Her school uniform wet . She  said that she's sorry and such . I forgave her . After that , we be friend back but not as close as back then . I don't want to disturb her about that because we had an important test coming . 

When the result out , she and Izz got all straight A . But I got one B . It's really hurt me . I cried for 4 hours when I got home . It's really hard for me that time with no one comforting me . 3 days before the result out , I got a shocked news about my late grandfather's dead . My sadness not erased yet but the other pain came . 

We all didn't contaced each other after that . Izz didn't gave me a single call neither Yuni . When 2012 approached , I felt like a jerk . I make a friend in my new school . But the she leave to an Elite school . Leave me alone . 

One day , I sent Yuni a message in facebook but she didn't reply it. I knew she's online but she didn't reply it untill today . 
 

I now phobia of losing friend . Although I make friends now . But I still felt that I didn't had friend . I often cried alone in the class . With friend and family I always flashed fake smiles . No one noticed that though . I felt like I lost in this world . Still searching for the real life . 

So guys , sorry if this story disturbed you or what . I just need advice . I never told anyone about this story . I hope you can give me advices . Thank you . Annyeong . /bow/ Sorry if there's any mistake or you didn't understand or I waste your time .