um...I just wanted to say thank you to my many friends on here, especially those that sorta know what I'm going through right now.

mm....thanks for dealing with the crap I've been telling you lately and uh....I really hope this ends soon cuz I honestly don't know how much more I can take.....

ah I know this is a really random blog post that most of you may not understand, but to those of you who do.....thank you so much for listening and keeping this silent....I'm truly grateful to you guys and from now on when you ask questions....I will answer them as straightforward as possible.

mm I love you guys...and thanks for keeping me upright....

Special thanks to:

Aj unni~SanSan unni~HanHan unni

HanHan unni- I don't even really call you unni...heh....but anyways, even though we just met, you've helped me a bit throughout my issue, though you may rarely notice it. You keep my mind off of it by fighting against me T.T but thank you, regardless. I dunno what I would be doing on my downtime had I not gotten to meet you.

Aj unni~ you know more about the issue than HanHan unni. ah....thank you for being here for me and just letting me talk to you and understanding me. You always lend an open ear and never judge, and you're always so caring to me. Thank you so much for that. You've listened to me go on about this and always have the right words to say when I finish. Though you are missing some of the information to piece this all together, and piece myself, you try your hardest to pick me up and stop me from falling....I would tell you more....but I think now isn't the right time...I will tell you soon though....maybe if you ask. Uhm....I love you unni~ and thanks again for being here for me. It truly means a lot.

SanSan unni~ by far you know the most about what I'm talking about. I know that it can be....difficult to take in...but thank you for not abandoning me no matter what the circumstances are....it shows your loyalty and I really need that right now. Uhm thank you for keeping all that info to yourself and dealing with me and my stupidity and all of the useless, hopeless words I've said to you. You also try to help me and pick me up. You and I have grown closer in just one weekend and it means a lot to me. You are a great sister.

okay coming down to it all, thanks to you three and some other people for just trying to cheer me up in general. Again, I know many of you will not understand any of what I am saying, but to those who do, thanks again for being here with me through most of it. And keeping me up when I'm at my low point.

~thanks....