Idk, if you guys actually bother reading my posts (lol who even has the time to listen to me ramble about nonsense stuff?) but on March 6th, I made that post about that birthday cake 

Oh. And it's really good. He let me taste it and asdfghjkl;. Ish sooo goooodd

Okay now back to the topic. 

Well, we had a talk yesterday and he confirmed that he really liked me. lol, idk how to explain how happy I felt. But then we were both feeling, how do I explain it, a bit immature? Like, we're too young to actually be dating you know?

He can't actually take me out or hang out with me outside of school and we were both pretty disappointed about that.

And another thing is that our parents are strict. What do you expect from Asian parent? =__=; I know they are only caring for us (seriously I do) but I sometimes wish they would be just a bit more understanding and put a little more trust in their kids. It's a human nature to have feelings for someone and we can't help ourselves if we develop them now can we?

His mom got a bit suspicious by the cake and he didn't want either him or me to get in big trouble. Dating was a bit too risky. 

So, we both decided to hold it off for a bit. Waiting until we get into highschool, maybe either halfway into our freshman year or when we're a sophomore. It's a bit less risky and I think we'll feel mature enough by then to start going out. Dating right now just doesn't feel right.

Actually, there's plenty of people dating in our middle school right now but I just find some of them so annoying and stupid. Saying things like "I love you babe" and everything like that. *shivers* I'm already feeling uncomfortable typing the word babe out.

Even though I clearly like him so much (like I'm not even joking), I'm not even ready to call that love yet. And it pisses me off how people go around claiming they love each other so much.

Like, are you guys even going to risk your life to save the person you're dating? Cause when you love someone, their life means more to you then your life itself. 

So, to put it short, we're just going to go on being friends knowing the fact that we both really like each other. And you know what, knowing the fact that he likes me back is already more than enough for me.

I can't say I'm happy. Actually bit disappointed actually but I know it's the best and I'm kind of proud that we made the decision we thought was right. 

To be honest, I'm kind of scared. We're both preparing for a semi long wait and I keep wondering if we can even make it.

I feel like my feelings for him are stable enough to make it until highschool, but..I'm not sure if he can hold it out for that long. But, once again, trust is important in a relation so I'll just put all my trust in him for now.

I'm most scared about summer vacation right though. 3 months without seeing each other.. *sighs* That's going to be torture for me..

But, no one really knows the future right? I personally hope that after 1-2 years, our feelings for each other will still remain the same. For now, I'll just enjoy all the time I have with him.

And the rest, well, why not leave it to fate? ; u ;