I hate my life.

please don't read if u don't care.... about my feelings lol

I really hate my life right now. I just got in trouble because of my anger.

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I'm just really really tired right now.

I have alot of test tomorrow. and i wonder if i would fail or not.

I have to think of my future soon.

but i at school. (alot)

I have alot of homework since i am in grade 9

my friends would treat me like trash. sometimes i would ask myself why am i friend with them

people would call me stupid, ugly, and others

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and i thought i would be ok when i go home.. but its not.

there's more pressure than school.

my dad would boss me around everyday.

i would get hit if i just pout.

my family member don't like me.

i would tell myself that i should be greatful of what i have. somepeople want your life.

but there to much pressure.

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i wanted to cut myself today

but i cant bring myself to it.

i kept trying and trying to cut but it didnt work.

im glad right now i didnt cut my self.

because i don't want to be people who gave up in life so easily

I hope people who have trouble right now would be brave and keep going

-There's always a rain storm before a rainbow-

- there needs to be a frown to make a smile.-

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I'm sorry if i wasted your time.

i just really wanna tell someone about this.

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143spirit #1 Jan 31, 2013 01:07:08

honey please stay strong. many of times bad things happen to wonderful people. life is filled with hardships and only those strong enough can make it out. the fact that your strong enough to not cut yourself already provess that. stay strong and remember there its always a bright light at the end if even the darkest tunnels

KatingaTrouble #2 Jan 30, 2013 21:38:58

Please don't try to do that again! Things will get better and you do have friends <3 Like me ;)

Rosechan #3 Jan 30, 2013 21:00:03

Awww <3

Don't feel so down. 9th grade always seems hard... until it's over. Same goes for the year after that. But honestly, it's because of hard things that you meet great people and make great friends.

There must be rain before a rainbow, but it doesn't have to be a storm.

And there doesn't have to be a smile. There's a beautiful Shel Silverstein book - a children's poet - and he tells of Wayside Story where one of the students comes to school SOOO happy and no one can figure out why. In the end, he says he smiles because he doesn't have a reason to be sad.

Tests, you can study for.
Friends, you can meet and make.
But your smile is yours alone.