This is going to be my second post in the series. I’ve skipped two other days but I was just too tired and rather short on time, thus couldn’t write anything down.

So, today is my 4^th day here. I’m still not too sure how to call this place… A hospital? Clinics? Temporary home? but whatever that would be, i’ve been here for more than half of the week. Actually I only have tomorrow left and I’m going home for the weekend.
It’s only 3PM, but I’m done with today’s activities. The only “official” thing left is dinner.

Lately I’ve been avoiding my room. Why? Well I’ve come up with 5 possible reasons.
1.I don’t really like my room-mate
2.the room is not ventilated enough and being there gives me a head-ache.
3.It’s too hot there (But I can’t open the window, coz for my room-mate it’s Already freezing cold :/)
4.I want to be in a more open/bigger place
5.I don’t want to mix my sleeping place with my work-place

Note to myself: If the 2^nd floor hall will be empty after the dinner, go there and sing your heart out (stand by you=one of the songs one the “to sing when I have some time” list). It has been 4 days without singing and I’m missing it So much! I can’t really take it anymore.

It started snowing and I didn’t realize that. (Even though I’m sitting in an armchair in a corridor, next to a Huge window…) My room-mate while passing by was like “I’m off to smoke a lil bit. It started snowing” and I was all like *eyes widen* “eh? Seriously?!” *looks out through the window* “Omg! It’s so awesome!”. When I put my head-phones on and turn my beloved music on I really do sort of trace out to another dimension…
 

And now back to the topic. I wanted to share some experiences from today and the previous days.

On Tuesday during one of the activities one woman started talking about her dog. She said that she feels so good and so up-lifted when she brings her beast (her huge dog) to the woods and lets him run loose. So the head-doctor continued that talk and after some time the talk developed into a peculiar situation: doctor asked her who in this group would be the rabbits and who the beasts. She said that the patients are probably the rabbits and doctors the beasts. So he asked her to rate all the doctors in a scale of beastliness. She said that he seems like the most ferocious. What I found highly amusing was that the head-doctor was Highly amused by that XD

And as for yesterday… The only thing I remember from that day is the dance therapy. It was So much fun! Seriously. This time we had just two tasks: 1^st to dance however we want (and I was rocking out. At first I thought of putting my hoodie on, but then I changed my mind, blocked my vision in order not to get influenced by others and randomly moved along to the beat. Though I guess I must have looked rather peculiar…  And then we danced waltz. The fun part was that we were moving in a circle and could make our movements as wide and as sharp or fast as we want. I kept mixing up my legs because of spinning too wildly, but that was fun! feeling the wind on your face because of your fast movements is such a feast!  

Lastly let’s move on today. I had 4 different activities, but I’ll talk only about two of them.
First of all, art therapy. It was enjoyable, but didn’t leave me as satisfied as the bibliotherapy. In art therapy we had to draw the main stages of our lives, using crayons (As soon as I saw them I started singing "get your crayon whoob whoob whoob" XD)… I drew 5 of them. Childhood (a 5-6 year old standing with a bleeding knee and crying. That is one of my first memories. I remember that I fell on a pile of glass and after getting hurt only one girl helped me out. Everyone else ran away…), beginning of school and school years over all (I drew a field with flowers and a bumblebee in it an then the school underneath it. There was something like smoke coming from the school and making the field dirty. It symbolized how my childhood pleasures and joy were crushed by the school. The school itself I drew in black and also next to it I drew a little human being hugging it’s knees. I remembered the bullying and the being an out-cast there…) next: 10^th grade (two friends standing there. one with an out-stretched arm and an other one with her hands in her pockets. Kei and Ryu. Two people that drastically changed my life. I had some friends before, but they were distant ones. More like vacation-friends and not “I’ll be there whenever you need me” kind of friends.
Next came my fall-down in the university and then Spain. I drew Spain’s flag in very bright colors, because I learnt So much there and I improved as a person while being there even more. But I added a black wire to it, because it was F***ing hard/difficult there!
And lastly my current self. A girl with very bright and colorful clothes (and hair. I still have intentions of dying my hair pink and green)  smiling from the sheet of paper. Yet with rather weak legs and a black spiked wire around her legs and arms. The wires those came from the past and don’t let her charge forward at full speed. I didn’t make many new insights from this drawing, but still it was pleasant telling my story.

And lastly the bibliotherapy! God was it fun or what!? First of all we had to get up and explore the room. Then we had to pick one thing that we found and to observe it thoroughly, then to sit down and to write instructions for it. We had to write 1.what’s its purpose 2.how to use it 3.warnings.  Afterwards we had to read them out loud, but instead of “this thing” to use “I” and then to discuss what feelings and thoughts it triggered.
Here are my instructions:
Instructions of a camel statue
1.I am a charming, wooden (probably made of Schinopsis), Dormedary camel statue that serves a wide range of purposes but the main two are: 1. being a decoration 2. Being a mood-lifter

2.You have to place me somewhere where I’d be the centre of attention. And just don’t put me in a closet or a dark corner, because I might feel sad and scared there.
Every day I’ll stare at you with my peculiar expression and lift your spirits. And to make me even more adorable you can sew some clothes for me Or you could use me as a hanger for your jewelry. This way it would become a win-win situation. It would be practical for you to hold your things there and I’ll feel all glamorous and of-use.
It is advisable to clean me at least once a week, otherwise I’ll start shedding dust and dirtying your rooms. (this makes little sense, but whatever)

3. But I Warn you: no not tease me! Do not put your fingers into my mouth and don’t make fun of me. I myself may be unable to hurt you, but I’ll make sure to bring bad luck on you.
Also don’t leave me alone, because I might get depressed and will start spreading negative energy in your house.

Follow the rules and have fun using me ;3

My computer is running low on battery, so that’s it for today,
Hugs and kisses,
Vili
p.s.:can’t stop singing bambaratatata tatatata BEAT and boom shakalaka *gigge*