Right now I am attending a 30-day-long course in stress disorder section in one lovely clinic.

Originally people are supposed to keep all the stuff confidential, but since Here, on this site I am pretty much anonymous (heartless mindless no one who care about me) and I doubt that anyone from my group or from the therapists is going to read this, so I'm going to talk freely here.
The blog posts may be very random. Some long, some short. And the content might vary from day to day.
I'm mainly writing this to myself since I do not expect anyone to read it. (But if you do, then maybe you could leave a comment here?)

So now that I'm done with the first introduction i should start the second one. So let me tell you why I decided to sign up or this course. The thing is that I can't really deal with the stress all that well and also my standards and demands for myself are too high. That resulted in me being unable to finish the 3rd semester of my studies twice already. (I'm studying English-Spanish linguistics) My mom recommended me this place and I hope it's going to be at least of a little bit of use for me.
What is waiting for me here? All sorts of therapy: group therapy, private therapy, community gatherings, bibliotherapy, painting therapy and dance and movement therapy.

And today It was my first day here.  So how was it? Well to put it short: rather colorful.
And to put it long:
First of all I was told by my therapist to come here at 8:45 AM and to wait for him next to the reception. So I came at 8:45, but he was nowhere to be seen. At 8:50 I started panicking. And to calm myself down I had to drop a few tears. After those few drops leaving my eyes I got a grip of myself and approached the receptionist. I had no idea what to say, so I just told her while stammering badly "I ddon't kknow wwhat I have to say" she smiled at me and told me say whatever comes to my mind. So I said that that I should be starting my therapy course here. She understood immediately why I've come here and asked for my ID. After filing all the needed documents she told me to go to the 2nd floor and to wait for the head-nurse.
So I sat down on one of the chairs nervously and continued waiting. Next to me were sitting a woman with her husband. The woman seemed rather stuck up and after one of her comments my prediction was confirmed. Her husband was looking around and told her that they are sitting next to stress disease sector. And she coldly replied "so basically next to the psycho sector. I hope my doctor comes faster, I want to have nothing to do with those freaks". That somehow made me smile bitterly to myself. I mean, I was one of those freaks...

The next interesting happening was meeting my room-mate. Though I'm not too hyped about her... She seems totally depressed and came here to reduce the amount of medicine she is consuming now. She has been using them for ten years now and not only they hardly help her out any more, but she can't live without them. (and one of the psychiatrists those I visited said that you cannot get addicted to those drugs... bull)
Now I'm even more scared of the medicaments.

Lunch... It XD Food here srsly is no better than high-school stuff and also the portions are so ridiculously small! Srsly it feels like I'm back to high-school!

Then it was time for the dance therapy. It was fun while it lasted, but when the dancing (very primitive) ended and we had to discuss it I felt so ed up. I mean... I think I at this and what I hate the most is being imperfect at stuff at that I should be at least above average... (I mean.. I've attended dance classes through out all the primary and middle-school years) ungh....

Finally it was time for my private consultation. That was the only part that I truly enjoyed. I could talk openly and about all sorts of stuff. I seriously love being so open. Even if it drains out lots of your energy and you cry your eyes out.
And right now I'm not sure how long I'm going to sit on the pc, since my eyes are so sore from crying! (Yet i still have to look through the subtitles of one thing that I'm translating... I'm Already behind my deadline TwT)

And what I wanted to add at the end is that I'm probably a rather annoying room-mate. Why? Well right now I'm typing rather loudly while listening to kpop with my headphones and moving my legs and my head to the rhythm of the songs XD also before I was watching some JYJ interviews and smiling like and idiot and then watching BTOB's weekly Idol episode and soundlessly laughing and clapping or shaking my hands in the air. 
I mean, when you are depressed, seeing a hyper or ultra-happy person must be annoying, right? Well but I can't change it.

Ok, I guess that's all for today.
Let's see what tomorrow is going to bring on it's wings ^^
Sleep tight nasties, shawols, cassies and all other lovely creatures of the kpop world ^w~
Hugs and Kisses,
ViLi