Did I ever tell you how much I a lothe human emotions?No? I HATE THEM! I know we need to live with them or we would being boring lifeless zombies. But do they have to hurt so damn much? Since I love you guys I can tell you something a little personal about myself. When I was a little girl my mother used to abuse me in the most crudest of ways. It turns out she hade a severe case of bipolar disorder. She had to get help for about 5 years because it was so bad. In that time I was seperated I was hurt deeply. I am one to forgive quickly as to the fact I knew she couldn't help it. I grew hurt and felt abandoned. I thought she didn't love me anymore because I didn't hear anything from her. Well, barely a year  ago was the day she contacted me. I couldn't be happier! I thought that this time we can regain what I always wanted,  a mother daughter relationship. Which we did very quickly in fact, but recently I got the news that she will be leaving me again and she doesn't know when she will back...... I am really devastated that she has to leave me. Hell I almost forgot how sensitive I was, tell someone said  something offensive to me and I completely lost the control I had and began and cry. 

*sigh* I really hate human emotions. If I don't update for a while it's because of the fact I'm trying to myself together.