I really don't know what's wrong with me but I cannot get myself to like any group beyond DB5K/JYJ/TVXQ.

If you follow my blog, you'd know that at one point I tried to be a VIP, HOTTEST and an A+ but none of them lasted long.

When I entered the Kpop fandom, it was a total Alice in Wonderland experience. I was a stranger in a crazy fangirl world I knew nothing about. What's worse? I knew no one. So I let it be. I like what I like and nobody needs to know about it. Until I discovered that fangirling is a herd thing and it's way more fun to be with co-fans. xD

Then I dwelled in the red ocean and it's been 3 years, I'm still in it.

No matter how much I look at other kpop groups regardless of gender, I cannot help but compare them to the formerly five member TVXQ. These boys set up a standard that I keep looking for in other groups. The harmony, the humor, the charisma, although I did see some of it in the groups/fandoms I stated earlier, they just don't come together like they do with TVXQ.

And with that, I developed a bad fan mentality. I know this will sound real mean, but I sort of started staying away from 'fan-friends' who don't give much attention to TVXQ/JYJ anymore. Like, sure we met via Cassiopeia but then all they talk about is Super Junior... it kinda doesn't give me a legit reason to keep talking to them.  (Unless we met through a general kpop environment like AFF or Tumblr, that's a different story. Usually those aren't shallow meetings.)

But what's even got me more disappointed is that I established this text group for Cassiopeia for us to keep updated with JYJ/TVXQ activities but then all they talk about is EXO and the not-innocent things they'd like to do to their TVXQ/JYJ bias. I understand that they're not solely TVXQ/JYJ fans but seriously I'd really like it if they kept the EXOtic conversation to themselves. And I also get that they have frustrations and yes I read Rated fics but the possessive attitude and slight disrespect they have towards their biases is a bit overwhelming. 

I really wish they supported more than they fantasized. 

okay... that turned out longer than I intended.

xD