Hey guys! This blog post was inspired by Rendeaboo because holy crap I am having just as many boy feels as her. 

Okay I guess I should just get right into it. So lately I've been on tumblr a lot and I don't know about you guys but I like to get to know people on tumblr because everyone there is just my type: eccentric. So whether it's girls or guys, I like making tumblr friends.

Well my best friend (I'll call her Porkbun lol because we actualy call her that) and I found a group of really awesome asians on tumblr. There are a LOT of them so we refer to them as the asian tumblr tree. So we found this group of people and we wanted to befriend them. There's like one main guy and I'll call him KJ (those are his initials). Well KJ is super cool and stuff and for a while we talked. But Porkbun and I realized that he's SUPER judgy and intimidating. So we slowly stopped talking to him as much because he literally scared us. And it's not him guys, lol my friend and I are just super socially awkward. 

Okay and then through him we found this other guy who is super chill and he's also asian and i'll call him Pokemon since he likes Pokemon. Okay so my friend and I began talking to him and we realized that we liked him better. So we kept on talking to him. And he's the guy I like.

But I'm having so many feels because HE LIVES IN A DIFFERENT STATE THAN ME and I'm sure that he doesn't see me like I see him. He's turning 19 in December and I turn 17 in February. Yeah he's freshie in college and we talk a lot but I just can't with him. Ah he's so funny and sweet and he's lazy as fack but I still like him a lot. He's 5'6" I think and he's just so amazinggggg.

I just wanna cuddle him and tell him that he's a wonderful person and aghhh. 

Yeah and I'm knitting him a scarf for his birthday~ lol i don't know how i'll get it to him though. Whatever.

I've been hesitant to admit it but I think I might be in love with him except I don't really know because I've never been in love (I don't think) so idkkkkk if this counts.

okee i think i'm done :3