i'm not tired.. i'm actually afraid i'd get use to it and stop caring..

 

that incident, is your wake up call~ you've seen this coming, right? it's bound to happen, it's just that you're not prepared. how long has it been? three years? three years of loving him right? no.. if it's just love then it won't feel this way, if it's just love then it won't numb this way.. three years of actually living for him. three years of waking up with eagerness to see him.. three years of sleeping with thoughts of him..

three years kat..

three unrequited years~

stop dreaming, you know you're delusional.. this should be enough right.. you have to stop right here.. so you can continue loving him.. but you have to stop living for him.. you have to..

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TinTin_0o0 #1
when u love a person truly, believe me u will never get tired and PLZ BE STRONG AND BELIEVE IN UR SELF!
TinTin_0o0 #2
if you are talking about Hyukjae then never think about this, because it makes u weaker. Always have hope. to me the more i know about him, the more i fall harder into the trap called ""love"" but not obsession. although im 14 and Arabian and hes 27 Korean. i already knew there is nothing going to happen between us but i always know that as long as im alive i will love him.

te same thing that happened to my friend, after the summer break she changed sooo much it made me really disappointed. she started to care and get scared of how people might say about her or hate her, so she left kpop and just went to those american singers. I wasnt mad at her because she is into american but what makes me mad is that she started to have less confidence in herself and she left KPOP completely! the only thing she is related to kpop is in the past, and if i wanted her to check out a mv that's all, its saddening. i told her how i feel but i told her that i will not leave her or hate her for that. i just wish for her confidence to comeback. ( the people i hate most ar the people who don't believe in themselves and get effected easily.
EunHae986 #3
I don't want to feel like that myself.
It hurts seeing someone who had become part of your daily life as a part of someone else's.
But despite everything, we need to carry on a life which is what we think is lifeless and colorless.
But that's just us as fangirls, and we need to be able to support them though it hurts.
Don't worry unni...
We all are experiencing this...
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kiochie #4
I don't really want this feeling but I feel it too.
I want to save my self from all the heart breaks that I might face in the future yet I'm still holding.
I can't help but notice that invisible hard wall separating me and him now unlike before. It's like I'm reaching out to nothing at all.
/sigh
Molla. OTL
Haebby13 #5
this is for Hyukjae right? :(
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