I have mentioned this to a few people before. I have never had a kpop dream with my bias before. In fact, in regards to kpop, I have only dreamt with Key. He stole my cat and broke my window so yeah, not exactly a great dream! LOL!

Anyways, so I guess watching all these dramas and reading these fanfics got my mind working last night and it finally happened!! I had a dream with Jjong. Seeing on how he is my ULTIMATE bias and forever my OTL, I should be happy. WRONG!! It was more of a nightmare than anything else. I literally woke up in tears and had the worst sinking feeling in my chest ever. Now, I have been in love before and when I woke up I felt the exact same way I felt when I broke up with my first love :(. I couldn't believe it.  As I got ready for class this morning my roommate was just staring at me and told me I looked like a puppy that got kicked by its master. I told her I had a depressing dream that I couldn't shake.

So, she handed me a notebook. Told me to write it down, fold the sheet of paper, and burn it. Supposedly that would help me forget the dream even happen. (she's Wiccan so I think it's one her things!)  I did as I was told, but after I read what I wrote I couldn't burn it. Not because I'm a glutton for punishment, but because it was actually damn good. Aside from the fact that it was about me. It was actually interesting. Granted, it was angsty, depressing, and sad. It gave me an idea!!

I have never dabbled in writing. Atleast not recreationally! I only did it for school papers, but I always faired well. So, I decided that maybe I should turn this dream into a fic. Now, because my @$$ is an optimist and I'm not the type of person who wallows in despair, I'm hoping the gods will be kind enough to let me dream again! (not gonna happen I know)

Either way, this dream has awakened my creativity. Besides, it will be a nice change from what I normally do. Being pre-med really takes a toll on a person. I'm hoping this will help me relax. I do promise to stay true to my dream!!!

'Til next time my lovelies

~Mari~