This is really nothing. I just wanted to work out with myself and sort out my problems.

I don't know why. I feel so left out and alone. i feel so damn empty. I feel so gay. 

- I have talked with my boyfriend at the phone just 3 minutes ago (or 5 minutes ago).  I don't know how he knew my number. (he's from somewhere else and not here in the Philippines). It's not that I'm tired of him, but these days, I don't want to talk about him or to talk to him. I feel so wrong. I love him. I really love him. maybe I am just literally tired...

-I don't hang out with my friends these days (we don't interact that much when we're online.. we're much closer offline). I feel so incomplete without them. I cannot take it if I'm not with them. I don't know. They were always there when I'm lonely or I don't know. Sigh...

-I lost another friend. SHE likes me. I'm a woman, shes a woman. SHE likes me. I'm not against Yuri relationship. But she's s too much to take. She doesn't want me to hang out with my friends. She doesn't want me to call my friends. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

I don't know...... I feel so ty...