“Annyeong.”

        “Sayonara.”

        “Goodbye.”

        “Paalam.”

        “Bye-bye.”

        “Adios.”

        No… these are not the right words to say. Uhmm… let me think first. Oh yeah! It should be “SEE YOU LATER” wearing a smile on your face.

        Just yesterday, one of the—or should I say the main pillar of SJ take on his responsibility, not as an artist, but as a citizen of South Korea. I admit that seeing the leader, and not just a leader, but also a loving acting-father of 13 boys—add the remaining two—will leave his brothers to take hold on his mandate. Yes… I know… It is his duty and I know that there comes a time that he will be gone for two years in the entertainment industry but watching them performing, singing, dancing, and giving happiness to their fans, it looks like it will never end—infinity and all of the sudden it happened, the truth just slap me to awake me from my deep fantasies.    

        The truth that of all the 15 members, only 11 of them remain standing in the industry, continuing the business they used to do as 15-in-1. Kim Jongwoon or Yesung, Shin Donghee or Shindong, Lee Sungmin, Lee Hyukjae or Eunhyuk, Lee Donghae, Choi Siwon, Kim Ryeowook, Cho Kyuhyun, Henry Lau, Zhou Mi and the returnee, Kim Youngwoon or Kangin. Even though the other 4 of them are not in the group doing their own business but they are still there… supporting and caring for their brothers. Han Geng—who is in China now doing his own solo career, Kim Kibum—pursuing his dream to be an artist, Kim Heechul—now taking his second year in the military, and Park Jungsu or Leeteuk—just… just… enter the military. >.<

        I remember when I become an ELF, Hangeng and Kibum are already departed from SJ so I wasn’t so fond or a fan of them. As what other said, “spazzing” is the main supplement of the fan’s health. Knowing almost every part of their public life and as the different videos I watch grows in number, I was able to like them as what I feel for the other members. That is the time when I meet the OTP of my bias, Kim Heechul, which is Hangeng; knowing that their couple name is HanChul. As I develop into a certified ELF, a smile in my face always appear whenever I hear something related to them.

        I know you also know about this feeling—that feeling when Super Junior comes to your country to have a concert and all you can do is to cry in the darkest corner of your room (just an exaggeration) because you can’t go. Sometimes, when the concert is done, you will face your PC and click on the internet browser in your desktop and enter the address of “youtube.com” and search the newly uploaded fancams of the concert and go along with the fanchants as you watch it.

        In other people’s eyes, maybe I’m just some crazy fangirl freaking out bawling my eyes out because my favorite boy group will be having a new album. But they will never understand. Super Junior is far beyond than that. Knowing that they will release another album means another concert tour, passing another year as a group, another chance to prove themselves not just in Asia but in the whole world and additional time for ELFs seeing Super Junior performing onstage. For me they are a symbol of friendship, of brotherhood, of love, and what it means to appreciate people whom you don’t know one by one, but because of their love for you, you feel humbled and overwhelmed. And what do you call these people? Your fans.

        Yes… I know… I am not the best ELF in town, unlike those other ELFs who are very ‘smart’, knowing every fact and song lyrics, but when it comes to the love I have for them, well I can say that mine is pretty much        profound.

        Believe me, I have always loved fangirling. It gives me a rest from my problems, an escape from reality, and I met friends, that, though far away from me, we are linked by some common denominator we have.

        I am excited by the idea that one day, as I have my own life attached to the normal world; as I heard news about something related to South Korea—I will suddenly remember an image of 15 boys in my mind, and their song will immediately play in my head. The happiness, sadness, cracktastic languages, silly moments, escape from all of my problems and especially the times when all of the ELF, united with the same denominator and that is the love for SJ chants and cries along.  And then I’ll remember my favorite among them, or as far as my memory serves me—I’ll remember the term used: ‘bias’. He goes by the name “KIM HEECHUL”.

        As an ELF, we have the quotation…

“BELIEVE IN THE PROMISE”

…which we always keep in mind at all times.

        I am sure that this fangirling life of mine will never last. But, keep in mind that I’ll spazz over my boys and be updated. In case that day comes, when I no longer, let’s just say ‘care’ about them, there’s still part of me that is feeling something for them—this fangirling part, only stored in potential energy but shall never be departed. After all, what does ELF mean? EverLastingFriends. And I repeat, so as to emphasize, EVERLASTINGFRIENDS.