Watching parts of INFINITE's sesame player had got me thinking back the old days when I would sit in front of the computer, laughing along with the members. I really enjoyed the process of slowly getting know each members and growing fond of them bit by bit. They are the reasons why I like variety shows.  L/ Myungsoo is my bias, from before till now. The scene which he had successfully capitavated me with his charm would be the one where he walked down the ailse in Paradise's MV. It still makes me have the squealing feel and think back to those times when I first called myself an inspirit.

It was probably the period I officially claimed myself as an inspirit. INFINITE made me happier and inspirit is the first and only fandom I am in. Just saying, I'm very proud of that fact. I don't claim myself as a fan of a group so easily and more importantly, I don't quit fandoms so easily like how some people does. I absolutely detest that. I have read somewhere before that, "Fandoms are families. We don't quit them so easily." That's too true but some people just don't see it.

I have downloaded almost all songs of INFINITE. Sometimes, I do seek refuge in their voices. Even if they don't know me, don't know us, we'll always be there. A nameless face in the crowd, a one-shot I read before recently. That is what fans are. They don't know us but it doesn't matter. Fan love is really something interesting.
I wouldn't say I got nothing out of being a fan apart from the joy as a fan. INFINITE also gave me something in return- a writing identity. I am not the best writer out here on AFF but I did find joy in writing. I made friends through this fanfiction site and some I would say are like true friends.

From sesame players to their songs, to Ranking King, to their individual sit coms and all... INFINITE has come so far and so did, inspirits. Their first win, three wins in a row and more to come will only make them busier. From the other part of the world, I could only hope they would still keep that burning passion, happiness while striving hard for their dreams. It hurt fans to see them so tired and I'm sure their parents would to.

On a side note, I hope INFINITE will be able to star in a variety show like Sesame Player again. I want to see them fooling around like brothers instead of competing against one another in Ranking King even if it's for fun and has no ill-intentions. I want them to be able to laugh heartily and rest while filming. It would be greater if they can make an appearance more as a group and gel further these days instead of having more individual activities...

May part of the new INFINITE retain more of their old selves. I won't say they changed but I would say they are changing and I understand that it is not up to them. They are gaining popularity and I'm truly happy for them. They are finally recognised for their hard work, which inspirit wouldn't rejoice for them? IUnlike other groups which rose to the top with a -BOOM- , they fought their way to the peak of their career. I love and admire you you guys a lot! Thank you for being INFINITE.

ps. Perhaps it's just a part of me hope to go back to those old days.

Random: I have did my part to vote for them in MAMA today, have you?

Disclaimer: This is a rushed post so pardon my grammatical mistakes and inaccurate information here and there if there's any. My mind is malfunctioning at this hour... Thanks for reading this random post 'Looking Back as an Inspirit.'