last night, i posted a confession, right?

tonight, i accomplished it. i deleted the stories as promised. 

i know that you are disappointed in me. that's why i decided to confess. i thought, it's better if i tell you than to make a fool out of you that those were my original plot. though, i know that you are disappointed and i think some already unfriended me or unsubscribed on my stories. i really don't know, cos i didn't check actually. i'm afraid cos it might hurt me.

most of you told me that it's alright, that it was okay, that at least i confessed to you, that most people do the same mistakes. i was touched, really i was. but i was most touched with those who told me that they are still going to support me no matter what, that you will still be there for me, that i won't lose you. there was even those who told me to continue and write more daragon stories. and there were those who said that they admired my bravery for confessing that.

well, i guess not everyone does that. you know, admitting something.

but i still felt sad, seeing some telling me not to delete them, to even send them to their email. sorry, friends. i can't. as much as i want to, i just can't. it's still a sin (?) i did. sending them to your emails and not deleting them and just credit the real author won't do any good, i think. it will just hurt me, thinking that people still read what i didn't really write. sure, some of the words were mine. yes they were, but the plot, no it was not from me. thinking that there were still people reading them would make me feel guiltier. and just writing an author's note stating that it was an adaptation or a credit to the original writer won't do any good too. anyway, i have to ask for permission from them. i mean, how could i? write them all the way to japan? whoa!

so, i decided to delete them. with that, it would at least feel like it's already not part of me. like it WAS just a part of me but not anymore. so i am so sorry.

finally, i promise not to do that again. i promise, i swear in the name of my grandparents' souls. if i will, i will promise to deactivate my account.

i know it's a rash decision. i know. but, sorry. i have to swear that cos if i won't, maybe i would still do it. you know, aff is part of my life already. so, deactivating it would be against my will. so, it's safer that way.

again, i am so sorry. so, i am asking you, my friends, please give me another chance to show my own talents and skills. i promise you that i will do better than last time.

*bows 90 degrees*

PS: i am planning to write a chaerin/darin fic. :)