2012

 It’s the year when I realized I’m a true Cassiopeia. I may be a fan of them since 2009 but never before I admitted I was one. 2009, the year of the split, I did not care nor cry about that matter. But this year, I became emotional just listening to the songs when they are still together, the moments when they are having fun as one, the music videos where they are separated, the music videos when they were still together. Listening to JYJ's W/ This is Not Goodbye makes me cry my heart out. I don't think, JYJ would like to be separated from TVXQ. No one wants them to be. DBSK is the BEST thing that happened to K-Pop and the split was the WORST. I'm so glad JYJ are able to compose songs that they can dedicated to Cassies and DBSK.  Cassiopeia- a constellation composed of 5 stars that makes a letter 'W'

The letters that the stars created in the night sky

I still believe that it is not just by chance
In the same darkness, in the same distance
We are painting the W in the same way
We will shine more and more so that you can find us
Keep in mind that I love you.
I wish…

Our paths will cross again, I am thinking about you every time I close my eyes, you’re everything
It is still natural that you are by our side
We can only wish that you are happy
We will climb our stairs one by one
We are still waiting for you, imagining our future

I wish..

Our paths will cross again, I am thinking about you every time I close our my eyes, you’re everything
It is still natural that you are by our side
We will keep your place here, until the day we can meet again
We believe that we can laugh together with you once again
You’re my love Please hold on
Even when the days pass by, and that there may be pains
You are always our “PRIDE”
The words that you murmured to the stars shining in the nightsky
We still believe that it is not “Good bye”

Under the same sky, dreaming the same dream
We are still searching for the W
We will always shine in the same shape
keep in mind that I love you.

I want to see you, see you
I want to see you, see you
I want to see you, see you
I want to see you, see you, see you

I wish…

Our paths will cross again, I am thinking about you every time I close my eyes, you’re everything
It is still natural that you are by our side
We will keep your place here, until the day we can meet again
We believe that we can laugh together with you once again

Knowing that Jaejoong won't and will avoid to sing DBSK songs just shattered my heart into pieces but learning that he wanted the five of them to sing it makes my heart full again. 

Soon afterwards, Jaejoong had written in Japanese on his Twitter, “‘Wasurenaide’ is not my song or anyone else’s.  It’s a song that belongs to the five members of TVXQ.  That’s why I don’t want to sing it by myself, or with the three members of JYJ.” [that just meant Jaejoong just wanted to sing DBSK songs with DB5K members.]

In his interview, he explained, “It’s something that occurs often in China, so I didn’t think of taking any particular action against it. I still hope that he won’t sing it, though. Whether or not it’s a song that I composed, it’s a song that belongs to the five members of TVXQ. Even I alone or with the three members of JYJ wouldn’t have dared to sing it.”

He continued, “I feel like it’s causing a wound to those memories that liked and still like TVXQ.  The scent of that song conjures what fans believe to be the most beautiful time of TVXQ, and so to sing that song without permission is only wounding the fans.”

When carefully asked if he had no intentions of singing TVXQ’s songs in the future, he quietly nodded his head and replied, "If it's possible to avoid.. Yes,"

I miss U-know, Hero, Xiah, Max & Micky. I regret not admitting that I’m their fan before. I wished I was born earlier, knew DBSK earlier. I wouldn’t deny that when DBSK debuted I was still 6 years old, that’s why I wished I’m older. I even wished I grew in a rich family, so that I can support them and buy albums but unfortunately I’m not. I regret it so much not buying the Mirotic album on Christmas of 2011.

Emotional. One word to describe me when it talks about DBSK. I can’t call them TVXQ, for I think TVXQ is HoMin, DBSK is DB5K. Every controversy that comes up that includes any of them and my friends would say bad things to them or turn their backs to DBSK, I would make explanations to protect DBSK. Some would say that the members of DBSK are old, but who cares at least you love your fandom. Some would say, DBSK has no talent. DBSK having no talent is impossible, DBSK has the powerhouse vocals in KPOP industry. I hated those of my friends who knew nothing about DBSK but bash them indirectly.

I would protect DBSK in my little ways no matter what happens. I may regret a lot of things but I will show my love for DBSK from now on. I will wait until the gods of KPOP will be back as one.

Sorry for my grammar errors. ^^