A. I've never written a blog post before so... hopefully I don't screw this all up.

B. Last night I posted the first part of Darkest at like 3 something in the morning which wouldn't have been bad, except I only had four hours of sleep the day before. I think the sleep depravation got to me because I did something quite stupid. I'm pretty sure I created a twitter account (which I swore I'd never do) and then I responded to one of GD's tweets. That might not seem like much to normal people; however, I am ridiculously shy and now I'm pretty much flailing around like a headless chicken.

Whether or not he replies (which I KNOW he won't because I'm not stupid) the fact is that I wrote something that he will see. I've resigned myself to the fact that I'll never get to meet him (or any member of Big Bang, or Koreans in general I suppose) and I'll probably never get to go to one of their concerts. It's whatever. Sometimes life just . But now I'm sitting here thinking "What if he actually saw that? Great, now he's going to think I'm an idiot." It's not true. Even if he did read it, he wouldn't give it a second thought. I'm just angsting pointlessly and now everyone can see just how odd I am. Sigh.

I don't even know.