♪"I love you, I love you, I love you
Even if I say it a thousand times, it’s not enough
I miss you, I miss you – each moment that I miss you, I miss you more
I call you and call you and call you and your face keeps floating up
If I hope and hope and hope, will you know how I feel someday?"♪

First love never dies.

The beginning.

In the beginning, it was not Kim Heechul. I wasn't a fan of Super Junior at first. During the time that Boys Over Flowers was aired in our country, I was a fan of Kim Hyunjoong, but not too much compared to now. When Sorry, Sorry came out, I wasn't a fan of them. I had the 'typical expression of a non-kpop fan'. Then one song changed my mind, Neorago. It's my favorite out of all their mv's because it's on this that I became a fan. It was this that I first laid my eyes on him. Some members caught my attention, but only one managed to get my heart.

Quiet. Nice. Gentleman.

These were my first impressions on him. I began watching their shows and realized how different he was from I thought he would be. He was really out of this world. He showed he was always strong and can handle anything. But just like any other people, inside, he has a soft spot. He cares for his dongsaengs so much like Yoona and Sulli. He is someone who is willing to do everything to protect the people he loves. If there's anyone who would bash him, of course I would protect him in the most mannered way. He's a respected person.

The last man standing.

Some might say I have traded Super Junior for Exo and BAP. Yes, I've become fans of those groups, but that doesn't mean I've abandon my first love. After all the groups that came out and after all these new guys became my bias, I only have husband. My background is still super junior and my two twitter accounts are still named after my hubby. I miss him. Each day I would think of him, wondering how he is, wondering if he still has twitter. It's still him. I only saw him once, during SS3 Manila. I cried that night after the concert because I had the feeling that it would be the first and last time I would see him. I was right because by September of that year, he entered the army. It felt so surreal every time I would think back that memory. I would ask myself if I really did see him. I get that different feeling in my heart compared when I see my other biases. It's like the push and pull reaction. Sometimes I just wanna punch him for all the stupidity and foolishness he did, but I feel like if someone would do it, I would take it instead. It's just that the way I like him is just so different from the others. Kim Heechul is my only husband.

I love you too

Kris Wu. Zhang Yixing. Bang Yongguk. Kim Hyunjoong. Lee Kiseop. Jung Jinyoung.

The Goddess of my life

The first time.

The first time I saw her, she was all I could see. She was all that I wanted to wait for during their mv's. She was the first girl who I had loved and admired that up to now, it's still her. The first time I saw her dance, it was with power. Everything she does is amazing. I thought of changing biases because no one likes her too except me. But even if I attempted to, I would still choose her over anyone. It's not because I don't like the others, but I was too attached and captivated by her that the thought of changing biases was painful.

Standing out.

When most of the people I know are YoonAddicts, I was the only Sooyoungster. I felt alone, but I was proud. As I said, I just couldn't change my bias. I love her too much. She stands out. Her beauty is like of an angel or a goddess. Her height also makes her stand out too. Her unique talents and her big heart too. She's a shikshin and I envied her. She can imitate voices and I do that too. She has a big heart that I admire. Every time I would listen to complete now, I would remember the video she made. She loves her members and she loves the fans. Everything about her makes me proud that I chose her as my bias.

The Royal Shikshin

There was a time I almost became an anti. But there was a reason I didn't become one, Sooyoung. I don't know why, but I just can't seem to hate her. I just can't. I can't love other girls as much as I love her. I tried but failed. I love her the way I love Heechul. It's irreplaceable. When I first heard the news about SNSD being confirmed to be here next year, I cried. Yes, tears fell from my face because it was first, a double treat, Exo and SNSD, and second, because I was finally gonna see them. For super junior, after being a fan of more than a year, I finally saw them. Until now, I do long to see them. As for SNSD, this year is my 3rd year mark being a fan. On pictures I feel like crying every time I see Sooyoung because her beauty moves me to tears. What more if I see her in person? Maybe also speechless. I can imagine what I'll be like, screaming my lungs out for her and cheering her with all her might. Even if she doesn't meet me, I will cheer for her. Maybe it was fate that I became a fan of her because I'm happy one. I don't think any other girl could overpower my love and admiration for her.

I love you too

Yuri. Yoona. Seohyun. Amber. Krystal. Kahi. Suzy. IU

♪Yeongweonhi happy together♪

Super Junior. Exo. BAP. Girls Generation. After School. f(x). U-Kiss. B1A4. Miss A.